When her lips met mine, my brain lit on fire and the warmth spread all over my body…her kiss was like a salvation and a torment and I held on to it with every inch in me…
I must have been dead a million years ago but being here right now, holding her close and feeling her lips on mine reawakened something in me, something I had thought was long dead.
All the worries I had in my mind evaporated as the sparks flew in every direction, the world floated away and it was like it was just the two of us in the world.
All the burdens I had seemed not to matter in this moment as her lips moved in sync with mine…
I wanted to wake up to reality , to imagine this wasn’t happening but the spell was overwhelming and the desire was overpowering…my hands moved to her waist as I pulled her in closer….i couldn’t believe she responded to my every move, the kiss got deeper and more passionate as her hands moved to the back of my neck with such urgency as I had never felt before……..she tasted like a hot chocolate on stormy evenings….and as I added more pressure, I felt her shiver against me….my body was taken over by a savage passion and lust combined with eccentric panic and pleasure…
SONIA
This couldn’t be happening, it must be another dream….i didn’t want an explanation, I wished my brain should just shut down permanently, I didn’t care what was right or wrong, this felt so right…..while I felt his tongue gliding across each nooks and crannies, I wanted to pull away..but I couldn’t…my senses were being seduced and I was getting lost in it…
I granted him a full access as his tongue delved inside my mouth, I tasted a strong scent of rich wine caught in the intermingling of our rapid breaths…
His kiss was rough and soft,
Devilish and divine,
Comforting in ways that words would never quite describe.
I felt like I was walking on air, it was spell-binding…I didn’t realize when a soft moan escaped me….
I didn’t know where the strength came from but I pulled him closer, I could feel sweet sensations run down my spine and then inbetween my legs….
I pulled him closer until there was no longer any space between us and I could feel the beating of his heart against mine….
This time, this wrong feels so perfect….so damn perfect!
My hand was splayed against his chest, I intended to push him away but I left it there and when he began to nuzzle my neck with delicate kisses….my whole body quivered and my heart fluttered…..but then, Ben’s face flashed in my head and with all my strength, I pulled away…..God….i pulled away!
*****
As she pulled away, he pulled away as well, they both couldn’t believe what just happened as the panted to catch their breath, desire and hunger glowed in their eyes….
They stood, looking at each other, there was no word spoken but in that silence, all the secrets that existed between them laid bare...
For Sonia, she had kissed Ben a billion time and it has never ever been like this, this was something else….she needed to say something but she just couldn’t find the right words….this was way beyond what she had expected, this was just magical…too magical…so wrong…
Calvin watched her as she battled with her inner thoughts…even while she dealt with her conscience, he still wanted her but he needed to control himself, he had no idea of what to say. intense and it was beautiful…she is beautiful, more beautiful than he has ever seen….he needed to help her.
He closed the gap in between them and tilted her chin upwards so they could look deep in each other’s eyes…initially , he had wanted to just say some things to just make her feel better but right now, he knew he had made a mistake to even try to touch her as he couldn’t let go of her again…
His heart was beating so fast and he knew he had to say something which he dreaded, something he thought could never happen again…
“Sonia….” He breathed her name again….
Sonia stared deeply into those beautiful blue eyes of his…on a normal day, she would have run away from him, even though all this was to be a plan which she knew was already working as she wanted…as she hadn’t expected….she knew she couldn’t let go right now…she loved the way he was looking at her, she loved the way he called her name and she just loved everything that was happening right now…but Ben…is she doing this because of Ben or because she was actually enjoying all the feelings that were running all over her…
“Sonia I….”
Oh dear God! He was going to tell her that he loved her…what would she say, how would she react…?
‘Sonia …i..i think it’s about to rain…..”
By the time they both got into the mansion, they were already soaked, laughing like children as the maids brought them clean towels…
Their backs were turned against each other a they both wiped the moisture off of their body.
Sonia couldn’t stop blushing repeatedly as the memories kept flashing, she had been kissed so many times and she hadn’t smiled so sheepishly like this…
By the time she turned around, she realized Calvin was also smiling and eyeing her…
They were behaving like children and they were both enjoying it…
“Can you give us the room please?” Calvin asked the maids who nodded and dispersed.
Just then he pulled Sonia closer to him, allowing his hands to stop around her delicate waist…
‘So, that just happened…” He started, looking at her narrowly while her head was bent in a shy manner.
“Yea, I guess. That was….” She started and stop, smiling and covering her face…actually this was not a pretense, right now she was being real.
“That was real calvin….”
“Yes baby, that was very real and I swear to you, it was quite way beyond my expectation.”
Sonia smiled and looked surprised, biting her lip . “Oh! So that has been your plan you naughty devil?”
Calvin chuckled, kissing her on the neck…right now he was being sincere.
“Well, that has been my plan, seriously, but what is happening right now was not actually my plan, this is way beyond my control.”
Sonia smiled
. Exactly the way she felt.
“Well, I may have wanted this too….” She confessed stupidly. “..but, you actually blew me away. Who would have thought that a cold hearted devil could kiss like that?”
They both smiled as Calvin brushed his lips against hers, one more time.
“You are so beautiful Sonia and I feel like I could tell you anything.” He said, looking deeply into her eyes. He wished he could actually tell her everything right now , right here.
Sonia smiled.
. “This has never occurred in my wildest dream…”
“Dream?” He asked as he took a seat while she sat in between his laps…
Sonia sighed, whatever was working between them was partially making her happy and making her feel bad at the same time…
She nodded. Yes Calvin, I have been dreaming about you for a long time... she said in her mind without voicing it out.
She allowed her palm to rest on his laps as he played with her hair…
“So, are you going to tell me about those dreams of yours?” Calvin asked.
“No.” She said, shaking her head. She actually wanted to enjoy this before it gets ruined.
“I need to go inside and change, do you mind?”
“I’m not complaining.” Calvin said with a cocky smile.
Sonia kissed him on the cheek. “I will be back.” She said, kissing him lightly on the lips before walking towards the elevator.
Calvin watched as she left and the stood up as his thoughts began to run wild.
This was crazy and way more than he had thought! This was becoming something he was actually enjoying. She was so perfect, so beautiful, the best thing that had ever happened to him and she had reciprocated the same way. This was too good to be true…
Just then sodi called.
“Wow! Boss! Is that a smile on your face? I don’t think I have seen that smile since we actually met at Georgia.”
Calvin blushed…
“Oh my god! Are you blushing? Did you kill someone? What happened?”
Calvin shook his head. “We kissed Sodi.”
Sodi gasped in a surprise. “Wow! That’s ….wow!”
“Yea.”
“So, do you think she loves you already?”
Calvin thought for a while….he wasn’t sure.
“I don’t know Sodi, how can I be sure?”
“Well, maybe you need to ask her quickly…”
“Wait, do I need to rush anything right now? I think it’s best if she tells me herself than for me asking her right?”
‘Well, you are the one who wants to get rid of her as soon as possible, remember and the triad said the sooner, the better.”
“Look, Sodi, I can handle the timing myself, tell the Triad not to worry, I will love to take my time with this.”
Sodi look surprised. “Okay but take things with caution boss, remember she has a fiance waiting for her and she still thinks she is a prisoner, you have to make her trust you and be sure that she has this feeling, you don’t wanna do things you will regret and….”
“It’s Okay Sodi, I can handle it.”
“Also, you are free to have sex with her you know…”
“Bye Sodi.” Calvin said quickly, disconnecting the line while Sonia stepped in again.
She was in a long flowing strapless gown and she looked so adorable.
“Hi, missed me? Calvin, you are still dripping wet, I thought you were going to change as well.”
“Well, what can I say, your kiss got me under some spell I do not know what to do than to just sit down here and want some more.”
Sonia blushed. She actually loved that. “Chicken!”
Calvin smiled as Sonia went to sit by the keyboard which was now in the living room.
“Go in and change Calvin else, I wont play this music…”
“Yes ma’am.” He replied, standing up but first kissed her on the cheek before he got into the elevator.
When he finally departed, Sonia got settled and struck a chord…closing her eyes…as she played slowly while her mind drifted to the conversation she just had with Madam Kofii.
‘I kissed him , God I kissed him and he kissed me back..oh ,,,it was so beautiful…” She had said to the woman who kept smiling.
“And do you think he loves you now?”
“No Im not sure Ma, but I will figure it eventually, I will let him tell me first, then I will be sure…”
“Are you sure you don’t want to hasten things up? A marriage you want to get back to?”
“No ma, I think I will let things work themselves out slowly, we can always postpone the marriage besides, I am enjoying this moment with him…it feels so real…I have never felt this way before…”
The woman looked at her suspiciously…”So, was that a proof that you don’t have any feelings or any care for him whatsoever….?”
‘Well..i think..well….”
The question had gotten her by surprise and for the first time….she was completely at loss of what to say…
**** ***
No, no no, baby, do not let those guys kill someone again. Why do you always have to kill someone?”
Calvin sighed,as he held the phone to his cheek.
“Okay, maybe I should ask them to kill each other then cos I don’t know why they are so clumsy with their jobs.”
“You don’t need to kill them, may I speak with Ruzo?”
Calvin looked at her as if she was crazy but Sonia yanked the phone from him.
“Hello dear Ruzo… yes, this is Sonia, please do not kill each other, do not kill the guy that refused to pay for the drugs, please give him the phone….”
Calvin watched as Sonia continued…
“Hello Mr Idris, how are you doing sir? How is your family?” She sounded as sweet as she could. “Okay, so you are having a problem paying up right? Why would you collect goods that you aint ready to pay for?......oh….yea, economic melt down, I understand..anyways, I just told Mr Calvin now to please allow me to speak to you, we are going to give you till the end of next month, will that be okay….?”
Calvin watched as she smiled all of a sudden then gave him a tongue out . “Perfect, even with a 2 percent increase, wow! That will be great then, I hope I can trust you with that because you only have this once chance…okay, you are welcome, send my regards to your children.”
Afterwards she handed the phone to Calvin, who spoke to Ruzo….
“okay Ruzo, its okay, you can come back to SA, he has till next month.” Then he dropped the call.
“See, violence doesn’t solve everything Calvin..
. if you had killed him, there goes your goods and your money.” She smiled, now lying ontop of him on his bed.
“When you saved me and brought me here, haven’t you learned that Violence doesn’t solve all things or do you regret, saving my life that day?”
Calvin smiled as Sonia brought her lips closer to his…
“I am a violent man Sonia, that is the only language I understand.”
“I believe you can be a better man Calvin…”
‘Well, I want to be better for you Sonia, I want to make you happy. You said you don’t want sex right now and I don’t want it to, because how I feel about you is bigger and I am inlo…”
Sonia silenced him with a deep kiss….they had gotten so close these past few weeks, he had even given her some control over the affairs of the house…she knew she was so close to asking him anything she wanted, but she just couldn’t, she kept hesitating…right now, she felt she needed to hear him say those words but saying those words would mean she had achieved her aim and she didn’t want to…not yet, she wanted more time with him because she had fallen for him….yes…it was difficult to admit but they had fallen for each other and yet, each was afraid of saying how they actually felt because, that would mean the end of this beautiful feeling.
“Calvin…” She breathed his name as their kiss deepened, her head and her heart and her conscience were messing with her and only one thing could save her right now…
“I want you to make love to me right now…”
“Are you sure?” He asked
“Yes, please.” She said with much urgency as she pulled his shirt while he pulled the switch with his free hand so that they could get intoxicated under the sensual cloak of the beautiful darkness.
They were like partners in a dance which was composed with their own DNA. It was like their bodies were fit to fall into one another…Sonia felt all sparks of electricity in her hormones, skin and all her senses shut down…all that remained were the two of them, right here, right now..not guilty conscience, no Ben, just Calvin and Sonia.
In those moments, there love was at a climax, their souls intertwine in the quiet moments between stillness and action…this moment , they had both stolen each other’s heart in an unending Climax….
“I love him Madam Koffi, I do.”
“Hmm, well, so what about Ben?”
Sonia sighed. This was so difficult to explain. All these years, she had been with Ben and had only been seeing him like once in two months because of his job, but being with Calvin and having these feelings just overpowered all she must have felt with Ben.
“Ben is a very busy man, that has always been one major problem in our relationship and…”
“Wait, did you have sex with the boss already?”
Sonia couldn’t reply. They were in the attic after the passionate love making she had shared with Calvin, he had slept off and she had somehow escaped to the attic, it was already late in the night.
“I did.” She replied confidently.
“But, I thought you didn’t want to…”
“I know and I didn’t regret it.” She replied, smiling as she remembered the beautiful moment she had shared with Calvin.
“Wow! Obviously you have fallen inlove with him as you wouldn’t stop blushing…”
Sonia smiled and then sighed . “I don’t know what to do, I love Ben and I know he must be worried sick about me but I also think he must be very busy and must have even forgotten about me, its’s the seventh week since I have been here and my wedding is…is today, supposed to be today and instead, I had shared my honeymoon night with Calvin and …I loved it.”
“But the whole purpose was to pretend, to use him…are you saying you have instead fallen for him?”
Sonia sighed and nodded.
. “Yes. He is trying to be a better person, I am incharge of everything now, he trusts me completely and…this is the perfect time to leave. If I demand for a jet to take me around right now, he will willingly permit it but….i don’t want that anymore.
“So what do you want?”
“I want to tell him the truth. About how I feel….”
“what if he doesn’t feel the same way?”
“No, trust me, he does…
“and what about Ben and your friends…?”
“I will work on that later" Sonia replied, half-smiling, she was in love with Calvin and she was certain about this. Tomorrow, she would tell him...
***** ****
“Sodi, I think I’m ready for whatever the triad has gotten planned for me…”
Calvin said to his tab screen. Sonia must have gone to her room, he thought as she was not there.
‘I don’t quite follow. Sodi replied.”
“I mean, I get it okay, maybe this is has been the plan all along, for me to feel ,for me to be a better man and it has worked, I have never felt so good in centuries. I am very happy these days, I am inlove with Sonia and I want to do everything to make her happy, I want to tell her I love her and I do not want to wait for her to tell me first. I love her so much.” Calvin said excitedly. He was finally able to come to terms with his feelings and he was feeling right on top of the world.
Sodi sighed. “But the whole plan is not for you to fall inlove with her.”
“What?” The smile vanished from Calvin’s lips.
“The plan was for her to fall for you, not the other way round.”
“What the hell are you saying? is it not the same thing?”
Calvin demanded, gripping the tab firmly…
"No, it's not, you are not to get attached at all...."
"what are you saying?"
“I mean, you have to break her heart boss, you have to let her go, that’s the only way you can shift the curse and you have wasted enough time already.”
I could feel my anger burning up as I listened to Sodi, she was so lucky not being close by, for I was certain that by this time, my neck would have circled around her neck…
“You expected me to get close to her, woo her, make her fall inlove with me without myself feeling anything?”
“Well, ur..theoretically, yes, no one expected this boss, I am truly sorry, I don’t know if there is anything that could be done and….”
I shut my eyes as I felt that heartbreaking feeling down in my belly….
“What if I don’t care about the bloody curse again? What if I want her with me, forever?”
“Well, you will have to risk losing her as she could die any moment either by accident or by anything at all boss…she will age so quickly as your immortality will quicken her own mortality, the whole plan was to shift the curse and if she stays with you, the curse will work in reverse for her because the symbol on her back is a reversed-symbol, she could die any moment, are you willing to risk that?”
For the first time in my life, I was speechless. The thought of Sonia dying was too much for me to handle…it was worse than roaming the earth forever…
I could feel the nausea swelling in my tommy, unrestrained . My head filled with half-formed regrets…
“So, what you are saying now is that I only have two choices?”
She nodded, looking at me in fear and pity….
“If I want her to stay with me, I risk losing her forever and i still have my curse, but if I chose to let her go, my curse will be lifted?”
“Yes, and then the one behind her will also be lifted, you both can be free and live normal lives…separately.”
I sighed
. I was weaker than I have ever been …for the first time, fate got me and I could do nothing about fate. For the first time, I was powerless, I was beaten…even the rage wasn’t building, but something else in me was draining….i shut the tab and let it drop as I sank to the floor myself…
In centuries after what happened with Trister, I never thought I could be truly free, and I thought I could finally get rid of this curse….still…I got beaten again.
I laughed weakly…
Grandfather was right ….i didn’t deserve happiness, not after what I had done to my brother and this was haunting me. Even if I want to live a normal life and die as a normal person, I couldn’t imagine loving anyone else like I love Sonia…Sonia oh my Sonia….i had doomed us right from the beginning of time..how I wish we could have a chance to be together….
What if I decide she could stay without chasing her away, without breaking her heart, then I would work the earth for another forever with no hope again for redemption but I could get to stay with her, I could be happy for a short while….but she would age faster and quicker and the finally die…what was the whole point anyway….
My sad mood hung over me like a black cloud…I felt so empty….but i gotta do what i gotta do...
To be continued..
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