His hands were so tiny it hit home,thousands of emotions evoked in my heart. I was a mom, I had given birth to a handsome fellow he was nothing like me you would swear that it was girl.
It reminded me of the very first day I moved in with Dumi he had looked at me with eyes piercing through the depths of my soul. I was so transparent to him. I don't know how he had tamed the she-cheeky-beast in me but I swear it felt good "Gugu I know you are not ready to be a mother and we sinned against God
all I want is for you to let me in,let me take care of you. Let me love you the way you deserve to be loved" I never regretted staying with him.
I used to send him all over the places just to get my cravings, sometimes I would laugh at him. They say our moods when we are pregnant they often chase men away but my so called lover never left he kept on following me around. That often pissed me off he knew it but he was persistent.
"Gugu why are you crying? " I laughed blinking my tears away
"Mawe I didn't notice that I was crying. I am just happy that I have Siya in my arms. I know that I will do anything to protect my son. He looks cute (wiping her tears) I didn't know that being a mother could evoke such emotions. My emotions are all over the place I always thought I was an ice queen but hey this boy has tamed me'"
She smiled through tears
"I don't know how it feels to give birth but I raised you like my own. I know how eager I was to protect you. This is mother hood for you and I hope that this baby tamed your stubbornness" I grinned
"You know that it's genetically so it won't leave it's here to stay" we both laughed.
Siya started crying I had to pick him up with care because he was tiny. I laid him on my left arm and started breastfeeding him
"Ouch this hurts I swear my nipples feel like they have been set on fire" aunty laughed
"Make sure that he doesn't look up or he is going to get chocked when he pukes" after breastfeeding him I laid him on top of my shoulder I wanted him to burp.
"Gugu you are not supposed to have sex. You will only have sex after three months" I laughed shyly
"Hhawu Mawe'
"I am serious I hope you will listen to me for once"
"I do listen to you, I won't have sex until I'm 40"
"I am not stupid you lousy girl. Come let me tie your stomach. I don't want you to have lovehandles" I stood up she tied me
"Ouch this hurts,you tightened it too much Mawe" she showed me her straight face
"Does it feel like you are losing your virginity" I laughed until tears came out
"I don't know what you are talking about I am still a Virgin" she laughed
"Yazi people are misusing secondary virginity. You are busy thinking about sex but you are saying you are a Virgin" we both laughed
"Leave me alone, I am feeling hungry what did you cook?"
"Pap and chicken,leave some for Dumi" I stood up and went to the kitchen
"I have to get pregnant again if it means that I won't be cooking. This smells good I swear I missed your cooking"
"Uhm so you say,did you see Lizwi?"
"I am happy please don't say things that will ruin my mood. How's Thando?"
"She is good she has been asking about you. Bab'mfundisi was asking about you he says he misses your worshipping services"
"Just like the prodigal son I will come back home but I have to fix myself and my mistakes"
"You do know that when the prodigal son came back home he had nothing with him that is how God manifests he says come as you are though your sins are red as scarlet I shall wash them white as snow."
"Amen preach woman of God go deeper" we laughed she lightly slapped me
Dumi came back home earlier he was carrying toys
"MaNdaba how are you?" I smiled
"Good you Zwane? (Opening the plastic bags)Did you really have to buy cars ? Siya is not even a week old but he already has toys of a 3 years old person " he laughed
"I saw the toys and I just fell in love with them. I don't want him to lack anything "
I went and kissed him
"You are going to be a good father but just stop overdoing it or you will fail dismally"
He devoured my mouth throwing me on the bed. His hands slid into my pants touching my slicky and wet cookie
"Stop Dumi no sex for you until Siya is three months" he complained
"But baby why? Why should we wait for three months?"
"Thus how things are done Dumi don't ask me those questions go and ask aunty" he laughed
"What do you want me to say to her? Should I say 'aunty why can't I have sex with Gugu?why should I wait for three months?' But Gugu do white people wait for that long?" I laughed
"The last time I checked you were black"
He went out of the bedroom complaining I laughed packing Siya's toys that his crazy father had bought for him.
Aunty was doing most of the house duties,she stayed with us for three months. She was gawking at us she definitely wanted us not to have sex.
I gave her money for groceries
"Gugu I know you are going to be a good mother. When you need me I will always be home. When it gets too tough pray, my child include God in whatever you do"
"I will always do that,I pray that God gives me strength to be the woman that you are. To carry the wisdom that you have"
"You will child, I love you" she kissed Siya who was giggling.
I cooked a simple dish I was really tired motherhood wasn't giving me a chance to rest .
Dumi came back home carrying fruits
"Babakhe you came back earlier"
"Yes I finished my things early" Siya cried I went to the room to get him. I started breastfeeding him, I caught a glimpse of Dumi smiling. When I was done feeding him he stopped crying
"Give him to me baby" I handed him Siya
"Handle him with care Dumi" I don't know what Dumi did or how he handled him what I know is that Siya puked on his face .
"Ah Siya this is so gross take your spoilt brat" laughing
"I warned you, you are too hot headed Zwane"
I dished for Dumi, he ate his dinner while I was busy getting Siya to sleep. I went to our bedroom and removed the laundry that was on top of the bed
I felt him rubbing himself behind me.
"I missed you so much Gugu" I was already on contraceptives getting pregnant again was out of the way
"Dumi" he made me face him
"I love you MaNdaba" he sucked my lower lip making me moan
He slowly removed my dress, he admired my stomach kissing it. He laid me on the bed looking at me with hunger and thirst
"Thank you for giving me an heir" I helped him remove my panty my waist was already on the air.
He removed his shirt, I was busy admiring his muscles. He went in between my legs and separate my folds using his tongue.
His tongue was fucking every corner of my cookie. I held the sheets tightly I was close to coming
"Oh no Dumi please " he pinched my clit I fell apart shattering my legs were shaking . He came back to my mouth I tasted myself on him. His cock hit my entrance tapping it
"Dumi" he was frustrating me I was getting impatient I wanted him inside of me. He slidded inside me and stood still not moving
"Move please" with in few minutes Siya cried
"Oh my gosh"
"Wait baby let me come" his cries got worse I pushed him away
"Hhayi Gugu this son of yours is crazy, now I can't get laid after waiting for so long "
The day for us to go to Durban came. I was going to see Dumisani's parents.
I woke up earlier than my usual time.Siya cried I bathed him fast and fed him,after few minutes he was already sleeping I laid him next to his father who was still sleeping. I cleaned the house and went to take bath. I woke Dumi up he woke up complaining
"Hhayi Gugu I still want to sleep why am I up this early?" I laughed at him
"It's six Dumi go and bath" he went to the bathroom, I made him breakfast I heard him shouting my name.
Sometimes I felt like I was his mother especially if he had flue I had to nurse Siya and him. I wiped my hands and went to him. When I opened the door he was behind door. He pulled me to him
"Siya is sleeping we can make use of this time" I giggled
"I trust your son to wake up when you are about to come" he looked at me with half closed eyes.
He smashed his lips on mine,he made me bend and hold the sink
"Gugu you are not wearing anything underneath this ugly dress" I giggled this time he didn't waste anytime with his teasing skills because he knew what his son was capable of. He filled me up all I could do was to moan I was surrendering my soul to this man. He moved very fast I shattered underneath him as I was about to breath he filled me up with his cum
"Oh baby that was mind blowing. The things you make me do" I removed my dress and joined him
"You are so cunning Dumi" I pouted
"Remember when I used to bath you when you were pregnant"
"You are not talking to me" he laughed I bathed fast. As I was about to leave he held my arm
"Let's do it one more time baby,look at me I am hard again" as I was about to respond my boy cried I left him frustrated.
When he came out of the bathroom he complained
"It seems like you love him more than me"
"Stop being a baby go and get dressed. Your breakfast will get cold"
Siya was now five months he was so fat I don't know if it is the appropriate word to use but he was very big and heavy.
We did final touch ups Senzo came and parked near the gate he helped me carry the bags to the car
"How are you MaNdaba?" I was so scared of him I caught a glimpse of his gun on his waist
"I am good and you ncane" he smiled it was my first time to see his smile
"I wish I was good" I quickly went back to the house.
Dumi was already done eating he was washing his plate
"Bafo how are you?" Senzo asked smiling
"Everything is fine bafo and how are you?"
"I am good" this guy was playing mind games with me I wasn't going to entertain him.
Dumi was driving and Senzo was sitting on the front seat. They played Maskandi music well that wasn't my cup of tea. Siya was sleeping he was used to the loud music. There is power in the words that you tell your children. I often told Siya how successful he was going to be and that he was a blessing.
I was woken up by Dumi we were already in Harrismith
"Baby what do you want me to get you?"
"Cappuccino will do" he smiled
"Baby the KFC cappuccino is not nice their beans are often burnt" Siya opened his eyes
"Go to Baba Siya, baby buy me anything I might like" he kissed Siya they went to KFC. I looked outside the window because I was only left with Senzo I wasn't comfortable around him
"Do you love Dumi MaNdaba? " I chuckled bitterly that was the most stupidest question ever
"Why would I be with him if I didn't love him?" He smiled
"Is it because he's the only man you have ever been with?" I got angry
"You are crazy, stop smoking whatever you are smoking because it is messing up with your sanity" he chuckled
"I see I hit a nerve, right?"
Dumi opened the car holding Siya in a funny way he looked at me
"This boy messed up please change him"
I laughed going outside the car Dumi was a drama king I laid the blanket on top of the bonnet of the car and changed him.
As we approached Durban I got more nervous. Dumi handed the car to Senzo my man was tired he leaned on my shoulder
"Don't be nervous baby,I can feel your heart beating fast"
"What if your mother won't like me?" He held my hand
"Chill baby my mom is sweet" Siya looked at his father and started blubbering Chinese. I could see Dumisani's eyes glowing with joy.
We finally reached Verulam but before that I had asked Senzo to take us to Gateaway so that we can buy groceries for the family. We couldn't go there empty handed.
Their house was extended and it looked nice. Senzo parked outside the house. Dumi got out of the car carrying Siya I followed them carrying my bag. His father came outside he looked handsome I couldn't believe that I was ogling at my father in law
"Mangethe, Linda Mkhonto Zikode asibingelele unjani baba (how are you father)?" He smiled taking Siya
"I am good and you my son. How are you my daughter? " I bowed a little to show some respect
"I'm good and you sir?"
"Don't call me sir you can call me Baba" I smiled looking down.
I followed Dumi his mother came running towards us she hugged Dumi tightly
"It's been long my boy" she looked at me and looked at Siya
"How are you ma?" I greeted her
"I am good and you sis"
"I am good" she took Siya from his grandfather
"This boy looks like you Dumi, he is so adorable. He took my weight" Zwane laughed
"Kahle ngehaba Makheswa" she smiled she was indeed beautiful but her attitude was stinking .
"I am telling the naked truth Zwane" I tried laughing . We sat down in the living room.
"Baba this is Gugu Ndaba the mother of your grandson. The woman I am inlove with" his father smiled
"I am glad I finally met you MaNdaba. I heard a lot about you,do not worry it's good things only " I looked down shyly while everyone was laughing
"Same here Baba"
Senzo walked in carrying plastics. He greeted his parents and went outside. Makheswa shook her head laughing
"There is something confusing here,so Gugu you came here alone without having any of your family members with you? Isizulu seGoli ngiyasibonga (I thank the Johannesburg Zulu) it doesn't have morals, the Zulu that we have here doesn't allow a woman to visit the inlaws when the guy didn't pay anything, young lady this is life you don't sell yourself short" I was surely going to strangle this woman.
"Leave the kids alone please" Zwane spoke with so much authority that shut the she-beast up.
"Don't take it to heart my child times have changed but that doesn't mean the tradition evolves it remains the same. We will do right with your family"
"Makoti what are you doing with your life" I swear this woman was testing me and she was winning Dumi responded
"She can't work Ma Siya is still young" she nodded
"I see but was she working before?"
"No I wasn't working" she looked at me irritated
"Hhayi man Dumi you go around taking every burden. Why would you date a person who is not doing anything with their life. Are we even going to get any money from you?"
Zwane got angry
"Is this the way to welcome children no you don't do that"
"But Zwane I am.."
"Keep quiet if you don't have anything nice to say" she kept quiet angrily
I stood up and went outside. I didn't know the place but I wanted to be away from the dragon. I got outside the gate rushing Dumi ran after me he hugged me tightly
"I am so so sorry Gugu my mother is never like this"
"Leave me alone Dumi, I can't stay here I want to go back home"
"No you are not going anywhere, I promise I will talk to her"
"Watch me go, I am getting back inside that house and I am taking my bags and my son we are leaving this place. How does one disrespect someone they don't know so much. I hate your mom Dumi"
"I know you don't mean anything you said,you are just angry" he hugged me kissing my forehead. I had met the devil face to face
"I want my phone I need to talk to Mawe"
"Ok first calm down you will call her tomorrow" I nodded and got back to the house.
Dumi showed me his room I went in and slept. Dumi woke me up giving me food I pushed the plate away
"What's wrong MaNdaba?"
"I am not eating this food I still want to live" he got angry
"Are you saying my mother is a killer?"
"Stop putting words in my mouth,take it however you want to take it.Leave with your food and bring my son back to me"
"Are you going to sleep hungry Gugu?"
I woke up and sat my eyes were bloodshot red
"Dumi do you understand simple language? Please bring my son back to me when you take back this food" he came and sat next to me I just broke down. Mawe was never this hard on me Dumi's mother was a definition of the devil.
"Please don't cry baby we will leave tomorrow" I nodded and went back to bed.
I woke up around 5 and asked Dumi to show me where the cleaning things were.
After cleaning I made breakfast for everyone. They woke up around eight
"Makoti how did you sleep?" His father asked
"Good you baba"
"Good" .
Siya slept with Makheswa l only saw him in the morning.
I greeted her with respect she smiled,she was busy entertaining Siya.
"MaNdaba since Siya is a Zwane we should do a welcoming ceremony for him,introducing him to the ancestors"
"I am so sorry Ma my child doesn't partake in such ceremonies. He is a Christian and he's a Ndaba not a Zwane. I clearly don't remember your son paying the brideprice let alone damages" she got angry
"What are you implying maNdaba?" I looked at Dumi who was very quiet
"My son is a Christian" she laughed clapping her hands
"Dumi talk to your woman" I hoped that Dumi was not going to fail me like yesterday
"She is right mom our son is a Christian and nothing is going to change that " Zwane spoke softly
"It's fine MaNdaba we respect your decision as the parents" Makheswa complained
"Hhayi bo just like that Zwane. You are allowing kids to walk over you. If Siya gets sick don't ask us to help you"
To be continued..
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