The aunty made coffee for Lizwi who was smiling
"Lizwi so how are you it's been long? Are you already working? " aunty was running out of conversations she was scared of what Lizwi was going to ask
"Yes aunty I will send my uncles here soon (Laughing ) so that I can marry Gugu" aunty coughed
"I hear you my son, why didn't you call Gugu when you were away? Do you know that she spent most of the times crying thinking that you have neglected her?" Lizwi rubbed his forehead
"I know aunty but I told her that we were never going to communicate for four years. She knew that I don't understand why Gugu acts like a baby most of the time(Laughing ). I had asked her to come with me but she refused I understood that. I was doing everything for our future I knew that if I had contacted I was going to pack my bags and come back without thinking twice. That is how much I love her, she's one person who can tell me to jump and I would do it without thinking twice that is how much she controls me. I love her more than I love myself. I would do anything to make her happy. All I need is you to bless us aunty, I would like to thank you for grooming her for me. I promise you that I will treat her with love and respect she will never lack anything in her life" aunty slightly sobbed
"Lizwi you are a good man. May God raise more men like you"
"Proverbs 1 v7 says The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom but fools despise wisdom. When I got saved I told myself that I will never live the life I lived before. Please give me Gugu's numbers I miss her a lot" aunty gave Lizwi Gugu's numbers
"Aunty I am leaving, you may keep the flowers and the chocolates since the stubborn lady decided to move out. Who is she staying with now?" They were interrupted by Lizwi's ringing phone. Lizwi decided to walk out waving.
At Phumulong. .
I had been packing and sorting out the grocery my phone rang
"Mawe how are you? "
"I am not good Gugu Lizwi was here,he asked for your numbers"
"You are joking right?"
"Gugu it's bad I don't even know what to say to you. I am disappointed in you, he had told you that he was going to come back after four years. Gugu why are you acting like a baby?" I cried the day had arrived
"Mawe I am human I make mistakes. I know I am stubborn I try to control it but I can't. How does he look now ?"
"He looks handsome you lost a God fearing man. It's better because you have Dumi he looks like a good man. How is it there?"
"He has been good I can't complain. I am from shopping centre he had given money to buy grocery"
"Gugu you have to go and look for a job since you don't want school. You can't depend on Dumisani's pay. Stand up for yourself and work you don't know what the future holds for you"
"I will see after birth,this pregnancy is not doing any justice to me I am always sick. My feet are swollen"
"You are pregnant not handicapped or crippled why can't you be like your sisters. They are employed even if they earn peanuts. Gugu be awakened umhlaba uzokuhlaba sis (this world will make you suffer) I know that I am annoying you but if you take my words you will thank me one day"
"I hear you let me go I am cooking the food is burning I love you" I dropped the call I had gained weight I was now wearing size 34 I used to wear size28/30. I received a call from an unsaved number
"MaNdaba" his voice was now deeper I swear I felt something twisting inside my stomach
"Mhlongo"
"Lalihle iphimbo lakho kwathi agide (how nice is your voice, I feel like dancing ) I have been waiting for this day."
"Oh" I was out of words God knows I wanted to speak
"Gugu what's wrong? Are you not excited to hear from me?"
"I am excited I am shocked. I can't believe that the day has finally arrived. I never thought you were ever going to come back. Welcome back Mhlongo"
"I miss you so much Gugu can you tell me the place you are at please I want to see you. I want to touch that beautiful body of yours. I have been longing for those sweet juicy lips for the past 1460 days, 35040 hours I have been counting all the lonely nights spent without you. Now that I am here I promise to wipe away every tears of yours and substitute them with joy, I want to make right with you. You will only experience joy MaNdaba.You have to be mine officially" I was crying
"I can't meet you today can we meet tomorrow"
"I love you Gugu with all that is in me"
"Where are we meeting tomorrow? "
"Fourways in Mugg n Bean at 10. I intend to spoil you the whole day"
"My battery is low bye.." I dropped the call I was doomed those were the results of being stubborn, the results of thinking that I knew it all. If only I could turn back the hands of time. If only I had gone to Cape Town with Lizwi I would have been speaking a different story. I finished cooking and went to bed. I don't know when Dumi came home. I felt his cold hands around my waist. He was busy brushing his hard cock on my butt. I pretended to be sleeping until I couldn't take it anymore .
"Dumi your hands are cold please stop it. I am tired I want to sleep"
"I am sorry I will warm them up" he tried touching me again. I knew what he wanted but he wasn't getting any tonight "Dumi please don't touch me I want to sleep"
"Baby please just one round. I want to feel you please maNdaba" I raised my head facing him
"I said not today,should I sleep on the floor now errh so that you can understand that I don't want. Clearly you don't understand the word No"
"I am sorry Gugu don't bite my head off" I chuckled bitterly
"Why would I start with you?since when do I bite people's heads please don't bore me" I felt guilty afterwards
"Sorry mamakhe sleep tight I love you"
"Mhmm"
I woke up the next morning late,Dumi had left a letter apologising. It wasn't him it was all me. I left home two hours earlier I ordered tea I couldn't drink coffee. Lizwi walked in he looked very handsome I wanted to jump on him but I couldn't
"MaNdaba woow you look.. fat in a good way stand up and hug me. It's been long" I wanted to standup but I couldn't I started crying
"Mhlongo how are you?"
"Gugu what's wrong stop crying,what will people say? "
"I am so so sorry Lizwi "
"Gugu talk" I stood up he looked at me chuckling bitterly
"No you are kidding me right. Is this a prank Gugu?"
"I felt lonely then I moved on. I didn't want to but he pursued me for more than two years. I tried but"
"Don't tell me nonsense Gugu,do you know how many temptations I passed without failure. Girls offered themselves but I gladly rejected them. Is this how you thank a man who respected your body and wanted marriage before sex. I wasn't stupid but I understood your worth"
"I am sorry"
"The milk has already been spilled. You wasted my time my four years Gugu. My friends were right when they said church girls are whores damn you wasted my time(shaking his head). I can't believe this,this is so unbelievable. I want to believe that I am dreaming. This is all a joke woow"
"Forgive me Lizwi I wanted attention you also contributed to my mistake"
"Don't you dare include me in your stupidity. Why did you even agree to meet up with me? To show me your pregnancy? And gloat rubbing it on my face.To you I was a stupid boy so you finally met the smart guy who wanted what you wanted. Woow this is the best surprise of my life I will carry this for the rest of my life"
"Lizwi please don't say that." He rubbed his teary eyes
"You will never see me again, you are worse than Judas Iscariot. I will never forgive you " I cried so much I pulled his trousers kneeling down
"Please forgive me Mhlongo"
"Don't you dare utter my surname. Do you love him Gugu? "
"I care about him"
"I can't believe that all of my dreams have been shattered. All along I thought that you were going to be the mother of my kids. Bye have a nice life" he looked at me with fury and disgust one last time.
I paid for my tea all eyes were on me. I was embarrassed tears were falling down on my cheeks involuntary I tried stopping them but I couldn't.
When I got home I threw my bag on the floor and went to the bedroom. I cried until I couldn't take it anymore.
Dumi walked in
"Baby what's wrong? Is the baby ok?"
"Yes I am fine I think it's the hormones"
"Let me massage your feet baby to make you feel better" he tried touching me I pushed him away
"It's him right Gugu? It's him woow " he shook his head laughing
"What are you talking about Dumisani? I am getting tempted tonight"
"I am glad you know it too?"
"Muntu (Person) what are you talking about?"
"So Lizwi is back that is why I am being ill treated"
"I don't even know what you are talking about just leave me out of your bullshit"
"I heard clearly you when you said Lizwi, I wasn't stupid to continue with what I had started. If you want to go back to Lizwi you have to be patient and give birth to my baby, my baby will stay behind "
"Dumi you got me pregnant on purpose right? You said you had pulled out. Did you pull out?"
I was so confused Dumi had tricked me. I cried he just sat next to me with tears coming out from his tiny eyes
"My baby is not a mistake Gugu don't you dare take out your frustrations on it"
"You tricked me Zwane this is so wrong in so many levels "
"Pulling out is not 100% accurate" I nodded and went back to bed. All my life I had been depending on Mawe she had protected me all her life now I had to face reality. He slightly shaked me
"Please don't cry I am really sorry I love you so much and I don't want to lose you"
"You won't lose me Dumi stop crying" he hugged me from behind we both fell into silence. I could still see the hatred and disgust in Lizwi's eyes.
I woke up the next morning with Dumisani's leg over me.
"Are you not going to work Zwane? "
"No I am bonding with my mini family today" I smiled
"You are still the crazy man I met four years ago"
"I plan to be one for the rest of our lives" I smiled looking at him I had not loved Dumi more than Lizwi but the mini things he did for me were making me to love him. We spent the whole day looking for our baby's bed
I was now eight months pregnant Dumi was helping me bath, he used to do crazy things when he was bathing me I would laugh at his silly ass. I tried cooking for him he came back earlier
"So she cooked" he kissed me
"Dumi"
"I missed you MaNdaba, this pregnancy is making you sexy. Feel how hard I am" he took my hand and placed it in front of him
"Leave me alone, how was your day my love"
"Good well I found us a house in Klipfontein I don't want you to give birth in this township. You two need to be in a safe environment" I hugged him
"Dumi I love you, I am grateful for what you do in this household"
"I am grateful that you love me the way I am and also for giving me a title of a father. I promise to protect you and to love you unconditionally"
"Are we getting married? I swear those felt like vows. I am even crying" he kissed my nose.
I dished for him, Dumi was very talkative but he spoke stupid things most of the time.
The following day his brothers came and packed everything for me. We were moving to a suburb I loved the place it was peaceful .
The wives were doing the packing while I was sitting. I was really close to his first brother's wife the thing is we were both Christians.
When everything was set they cooked. When I walked in inside the house the last born who was a gangster looked at me inappropriately but I brushed it off I couldn't bring myself to talk to him that is how scared I was of him.
Dumi was now using his brother's car. I was woken up by an excruciating pain, I staggered going to the bathroom
Dumi followed me
"What do you want? " I hated how he followed me around as if I was selling something
"I saw you.." I screamed
"Dumisani this feels like death. .uh.. I swear it's my last time. Why are you still standing there?"
He ran to the bedroom taking the car keys.
He was nervous he took the bags we were always prepared just in case if I were to go to labour because I knew that I was going to give birth anytime soon
He carried me to the car
"You will drop me Dumisani" he smiled his stupidity was irritating me more and more. He later called Mawe
"Gugu are you okay?" How does one ask an obvious question. I looked at him and closed my eyes .
"I will give birth in this car if you drive slow (Dumi drove faster ) I didn't say get us killed. Dumi what's your problem "
We finally reached Johannesburg hospital. The nurses came running towards I had to sit on the wheelchair.
Dumi went back to the car to get my bags. We were taken to the maternity ward.
The doctor came and asked me to open my legs. He inserted his two fingers.
"Mam I can feel the head it's near open your legs wider" he called for the nurse.
"Ma it's time for you to push, you are lucky uh you didn't get any labour pains"
I pushed I wanted to close my legs the nurse slapped me
"Hey open your legs wider sisi" she was so rude she was the devil's advocate
I pushed for the last I heard a deafening sound. I literally cried I had brought a life
"It's a boy he is so big" they weighed him he was 3.6kg. His father walked in smiling. I handed him to Dumi
"Siyabonga Zwane" I smiled through tears
"He looks like you Zwane"
"He has to, I am handsome he can't be ugly he's a Zwane" I laughed looking at my silly man.
Aunty came the next day, we got discharged around 12.
Mawe taught me how to nurse my stitches. She helped me bath Siyabonga I felt like it was breaking her she had never had a child of her own. I was so scared to bath him he was so tiny. My nipples were sore and my breasts had grown big.
To be continued..
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