THE UNKEPT WIFE Sequence 19-20

The nurses and the doctor in duty ran after me. Siya was crying
"Siya get away from daddy come to me let the doctor see him" he was very clingy
They attended to him. They checked his vitals monitoring them. I went outside and called Mawe and Bab'Zwane.
They withdrew the drugs that were keeping him sedated.
His eyes could not stay focused. I went outside Siya was now crying
"Siya we will go back stop crying my boy"
"Mommy he will sleep again I want Baba"
Within thirty minutes our families were already packed inside the hospital . I threw myself in Mawe's embrace
"He is awake mommy, he is awake thank you God" Makheswa came and joined us crying. Mawe asked us to hold our hands, we closed our eyes Mawe prayed. After an hour the doctor came outside
"We are glad that he is out of the coma we have withdrawn all the drugs in his system. You may go and see him but don't talk much because he is not in a good state. You will go in threes we don't want him to be overwhelmed. For him to go back to his normal state might take some days"
"I will go in with his parents, Doc can my son come with us too"
"It's ok Miss Ndaba" I opened the door. He opened his eyes wide. I wanted to kiss him so bad but I couldn't his parents were next to him.
"My son you are back, I thank your ancestors for waking you up (crying) welcome back to the Land of the living" Zwane held Makheswa well he wasn't a man of many words.
The whole family saw him we were so excited. Fasting for the next five days was already at the back of my mind. The same God who freed the Israelites from the Egyptians had freed my man.
Vumani bought a cake for Siya. We did a mini celebration, Siya took many pictures with Vumani.
Four days after he woke up his speech was still slurred, his hands shook too much, it was like he was hallucinating but the doctors said it's normal . Whenever I gave him cold food he didn't complain I asked the doctors why it was like that, they told me that his taste buds were off. They told me that it was going to take a while for him to be back to normal. He had lost a lot of weight.
THREE MONTHS LATER
He was now better, he had injured his leg. I decided to wear my wrap over dress with no knickers underneath. Siya was staying with Mawe.
This receptionist was going to be the death of me her kindness was too much and too fake.
I walked in carrying two ocean basket take aways I gave her one
"Thank you Miss Ndaba"
"Pleasure honey"
Everything was going well my business was blooming it was all God.
He was lost in his thoughts looking outside the window
"Zwane" he turned and faced me smiling
"Come here baby, why are you still standing there?" I went to him
"I still can't get over the fact that you are finally here with me." His eyes penetrated my eyes as if they were searching for something
"Dumi quit staring it's rude"
"I was mesmerised by your beauty, come let's share this bed I want us to cuddle"
"No baby the bed is too small" deep down I wanted it so bad but I wanted him to convince me
"Come baby here is your space" I removed my stilettos and went to him.
"You are so sexy MaNdaba"
"Stop it Dumi" he brushed my thighs, his hand was moving under my skirt he moved. He grabbed my ass
"Damn Gugu oh God what do you want to do to me, you are not wearing anything underneath this sexy dress "
His fingers traced my wet folds. He dipped his finger inside my cookie. I was now moaning
"Gugu"
"Mhnm"
"Do you want me to stop?"
"No"
"Keep your voice low" he asked me to turn around and face him he devoured my mouth softly and tenderly. He took out his magnificent cock and entered me slowly
"Dumi you are too big"
"There are too much sperms hey I guess they are reason why my dick is swollen" I laughed
"Awu.. Dumi this is so...damn" he slammed into me I swear I saw stars. He moved very slowly he was reaching the deepest core of my cookie. I shattered underneath him he followed with a groan. We were both panting helplessly. I stood up and wiped us. His eyes got teary
"Thank you for standing by me thank you for loving me Gugu. Thank you for taking care of our son in my absence"
"Do not thank me I love taking care of my mini family"
"There was this other time that I often thought you had left me. Your voice gave me a reason to fight. I heard everything that you were saying" he wiped my tears
"I love you Dumi"
"Enough with the tears come and kiss me. Actually I like it when your ass is grinding on my dick" I laughed
"You are crazy Dumi Christmas comes once in a year"
"Let's get naughty one more time, I'm already starving come and give me my cookie"
"No I'm feeding you now"
"Gugu but.."
"Shut up and eat (they both laughed) I will go and get you water"
"I feel like a baby.. like Siya,please bring him tomorrow"
"Ok baby I am leaving I have to deliver some orders to my clients" we kissed one more time
"I love you MaNdaba"
"I love you Zwane".. I walked out of the room walking like a Boss lady well I was satisfied.
When I got home Mawe and Siya were sleeping. My orders were sorted out and delivered. I just joined them.
The next morning Siya and I went to Fourways mall , we walked to Checkers Siya was making me run after him
"Siya hey wena Mbuzi stop" When I went to the other side I saw Lizwi speaking to him. He looked at me I couldn't say anything my palms became sweaty
"How are you MaNdaba?" His hands were now on his pocket
"I .. am ... good I'm good and you" his cologne was so strong his eyes were full of love they were the opposite of what I had see in our last encounter.
"I wish I was good are you in a hurry Gugu?"
"Yes Mhlongo" he took Siya and played with him
"Do you want to go and get an ice cream young fellow?"
"Yes I want ice cream"
"Gugu are you joining?" I nodded
We went to Wimpy he ordered for us.
"He doesn't look like you Gugu" having this conversation with him was really Awkward for me
"He looks like his father, most people say that"
"He is lucky he got what was supposed to be mine"
"When are you getting married?"
"You will be the first one to know"
He moved his attention from me to Siya they were talking like old friends . He bought Siya a toy.
When we left the mall he grabbed me and hugged me. He smashed his lips on mine this was wrong I wanted to stop him but I couldn't push him away he stopped and looked at me
"What if I told you that I want us to have another chance. I love you Gugu I can't imagine my life without you"


His eyes were full of tears, I couldn't help it but cry too
" I have never stopped loving you Gugu I couldn't bring myself to forgive you for not waiting for me and for forgiving myself for not persuading you into going with me to Cape Town. I swear life is so cold without you. I deeply love you Gugu and I don't know how you feel about me. I am willing to try if you are willing to give us a chance"
"I have a family now Lizwi things are not the same anymore. Sometimes love on it's own is not enough. I might love you now maybe until infinity but I can't leave my family"
"So is this the end of us"
"Yes Mhlongo this is the end of us"
"Should I move on and get married Gugu? (Taking her hand placing it on his chest) can you feel how my heart is beating, it only beats for you Gugu. Shouldn't I be the one angry? The one being begged?"
"Stop doing this to me please Lizwi"
"Can I at least get your numbers MaNdaba?"
"No ,thank you for the lunch bye" his face had turned red since he was light skinned
"Can I say goodbye for the last time?" I hugged him he smashed his lips on my again the same kiss I knew six years ago.
He wiped my tears and kissed my forehead
"Goodbye Lizwi" he looked down
"Bye Gugu it's so hard to let go"
"Don't make it harder than this Lizwi"
I picked up Siya and walked and never looked back. Had I looked back I was going to go back to him
"Mama who is that?"
"That is your uncle" he smiles and frowns again
"Why were you crying? "
"I wasn't something got into my eyes" he wipes my tears with his tiny hands.
We took a taxi to the hospital, when we got to the hospital Siya got off me rushing to his father's room
"Hhayi bo MaNdaba you look bad what's happening?" This receptionist loved things
"Let me go and wash my face in the toilet. Please borrow me your make up"
she got off the chair and took it from the cupboard
"You do not have to ask me twice"
"Thank you honey"
"Mhmm my pleasure so today you didn't get me anything"
"I'm giving you a chance to get a boyfriend (Laughing) unless you want to do me but too bad I'm attracted to men"
"I see the same man who made you cry before you see your other man. We are players ain't we?" We both laughed
"Get out of here "
I fixed myself really fast I was now looking better.
"Thank you girl" I handed her kit
"Like wise"
Walking like a queen was something that was attractive to me,
Opening the door was a struggle guilty was running on my mind
"Hey baby" Siya giggled while he stiffened. I kissed him
"Argh daddy mama did that with uncle"
"Siya what are you talking about? (Angrily) did you see me doing that uh with that uncle" he shook his head
"I am sorry mommy"
"Siya go and get me water" Dumi spoke softly
"He won't reach the sink, I will go and get it for you" he grabbed my arm tightly
"Next time when you go to your boyfriends leave my son behind. Do not tell your boyfriends to buy my son a car. Don't bitch around with my son, do you understand me"
"You are hurting me, leave me alone" he let go of me sighing
"Gugu am I not a man enough? Is it because I am not working"
"You getting worked up for nothing,I was with Mondli and he's gay. We used to attend the same class. You know how gays are, i don't care about what Siya said"
"Mxm look at how guilty striken you are"
"It's all in your head"
"I fucked a nurse"
"Are you kidding me Dumi? Who's that nurse? Dumi you are not planning to take that route right?"
"That is exactly how I feel when you go around kissing men and after that you come back and kiss me"
"I have been nothing but faithful to you Dumi (crying) is that the way of questioning my loyalty? then what we have is a waste of time we might as well separate. I have been nothing but faithful to you up until Senzo .." he held me tightly
"I'm so sorry, I trust you . I love you Gugu let us not allow what Siya said separate us"
"Yes my love" he kissed me . That was was so close ugh Siya and his big mouth nearly got me in trouble.
I quickly repented I had lied to Dumi,Lizwi was going to be a past that was going to get buried.
A MONTH LATER
Dumi was back at home, we were so excited Zodwa had cooked a scrumptious meal. I tasted her stew it was mouthwatering she slapped my hand
"Gugu I am the one who is cooking get away from here"
"You are cooking for my whole family, what if there is a poison or a love potion" she laughed
"I didn't think of that, now that you have mentioned it I will think about it "
"If you dare use a love potion on my man I will kill you" we both laughed
"Yes ma'am but don't dare me or you will get shocked"
The cars hooted outside, Zodwa went out to open the gates. The whole family got inside the house Siya ran to his father who was using a crutch.
"Siya daddy will fall stop it" I went to MaKheswa and took the bags from her. Bab'Zwane sat near the door since we were already full inside the house
"MaNdaba we are grateful that our son got a woman like you, if anything happens between the two feel free to call us "
"Thank you Baba" with my had facing down
We served them food they ate and left in the evening.
"It's nice to be back at home Gugu" I went and leaned next to him
"having you back home is very nice. I am glad that you defeated death. Are you going to church tomorrow? "
"No I am tired I will go someday"
"Do you remember when you were asking me out you said you were going to go to church with me now you are telling me a different story"
"Gugu I am not a Christian and I am not planning to be one. I am not stopping you from going to church. You should be grateful that I am not like other men who stop their women from going to church" I stood up
"Goodnight Dumisani this conversation won't end well" I took Siya who was already sleeping on the couch and placed him in the middle of the bed.
Dumi was limping coming to bed.
We woke up early the next morning. While I was bathing Zodwa was busy feeding Siya. Vusi passed by our house around past eight .
We got to church early Zodwa was an intercessor. They prayed and worshipped,Siya was in Sunday school. I was raising a young man who feared God.
The Pastor preached about the importance of fearing God. How our bodies are the temples of God. How we are vessels of God.
It was time for testimonies
"Congregation let's give a round of applause as we welcome sister Gugu on the stage" I ascended to the stage the Pastor handed me the microphone
"Good day congregation it is nice to be here"
"Kumnandi ukuba lana" the congregation shouted
"My name is Gugu Ndaba the past year was very hard for me. The father of my son got into an accident and slipped into a coma. (Crying) it became very hard for me I had nowhere to go and I was unemployed . I still prayed, God blessed me with a business of tupperware and Avon. People from where I stay supported me and also here at church. I prayed and became faithful in my tithes and offerings since God was faithful to me. I'm not sure about the dates but it was around June. My son fell and broke his leg, those were the trials I went through but I still prayed. The brothers and sisters of church prayed with me. My mom took Siya that became better for me she often reminded me of how faithful Job was (Laughing) I often told her that I wasn't Job she would often nod and say you are stronger than him. It happened that one day I was home alone some man walked inside my house and raped me. I cried Bazalwane I told God that I was done with him and I wasn't going to pray. I had anger and hatred. My mom never forced me to pray (Laughing). Little did I know that not all the storms you go through are there to destroy you but to make you stronger. I want to tell you that my father's son is back home. God saved him from the jaws of death he remained faithful when I wasn't he showed me who he was. Siya is fully healed, my heart has joy and peace I forgave the perpetrator it was not an easy journey but it was worth it. The Bible says we shall overcome by the word of our testimonies. I would like to tell you that be still and know that he is the Lord your God" I was a crying mess Vusi came and held me. We went outside
"You are strong MaNdaba, but hey you are ugly when you cry please don't do it in public" I laughed
"You are crazy you know go and take my handbag" he ran inside and got my handbag
"I feel like I am your husband, I am being used here"
"Stop it (Laughing) I am watching you and Zodwa you know what I will keep quiet"
The Pastor asked me to sing a song I sang "Be still and know that I am the Lord your God" we moved from one realm to another realm the place was filled with the holyspirit yes we felt God moving.
The Pastor asked to see me after church
"Sister Gugu you have a powerful voice when are you joining the music team?"
"I am not married the day I get married I will join"
"You do know what the bible says about co-habiting right?"
"Yes Pastor I will send the invitation cards soon" he laughed
"It's ok my sister may God increase in you"
I missed my old church. Lizwi never called or searched for me on Facebook I was so happy and sad at the same time. He was the only man who saw me as a wife Dumi had never mentioned the word marriage.
Vusi dropped us at home and left with Zodwa
"Zodwa no sex before marriage we want purity only" they both laughed Siya looked at me
"What did you hear young man?"
"Nothing mommy"
"Good stop being a spy have you ever seen a man who gossips?".he shook his head and I laughed
We got inside the house Dumi had not made the bed I wasn't going to allow him to test me . I made the bed and made food for us
"You are not going to talk to me"
"Dumi you came back from the hospital yesterday the last thing I want is to make you miss the hospital" he hugged me from behind
"I am sorry for getting you angry my love"
"It's ok baba ka Siya"
Vusi's words ran on my mind was he ever going to marry me?. Was I fit enough to be his wife? since his brother had seen me naked he had violated me. Was I ever going to be his wife?

To be continued..

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THE UNKEPT WIFE Sequence 17-18

I was so petrified .
So disgusted by my own body. The footsteps were echoing around the kitchen. I pulled my gown closer to me.
"Gugu Gugu, you have started with our stupid game. I bought flowers for Dumi. They will refresh his room, Gugu am I talking to myself? (Walking to the bedroom. Lightly knocking. She pushed the door) oh my God no (crying) what's happening? What happened?" I wanted to hold those tears so bad but I failed . My heart was breaking piece by piece
"It's Senzo"she ran outside getting her phone and called the police
She hugged me we cried together within thirty minutes the policemen where already in the house
Zodwa walked inside my room with the police officer
"Good day Miss Ndaba, you are Miss Ndaba right?" I nodded
He took out his pad and pen
"Wo

uld you like to file a charge?" Zodwa held my hand tears were flowing effortlessly, my legs were shaking. Being strong was the last thing on my mind
"Yes..yes"
"Where did it happen? And what were you wearing?"
"I .. I was in my bedroom changing. When he walked in I was naked (Zodwa held her hand tightly) changing getting myself ready. Everything happened in my bedroom" he raised his brow
"Are you sure that he raped you?" Fury engulfed me
"What the fuck are you asking? I am fucken sure. Zodwa get him out of here he is here to mock me. Tell him to leave" Zodwa hugged me
"I am sorry ma'am we ask all these questions it is how we do the proper procedure"
The only thing my heart wanted was to hide my shame under my blankets. Senzo had won in humiliating me
"Do you know the perpetrator?"
"Yes (lowering her voice) my boyfriend's little brother. His name is Senzo. (Zodwa handed his picture to the police officer)"
"How did it happen Miss Ndaba?"
"He threatened me with a gun, he slapped me several times" there was still blood in my nose and my body was badly bruised.
" open your gown let me see the bruises (Looking at her bruises made him cringe) wear something we will go to the hospital now. Miss you can come with us"
When we got to the hospital I was taken straight to a doctor.
"Miss Ndaba wait for me I have to complete the rape kit" the doctor took some scrapings under my finger nails, the evidence of sperm from my vagina. The police officer stayed behind I asked Zodwa not to call anyone since I had a feeling that they would want us to solve it as a family.
Then I under went the HIV test. I was given ARVs to drink so that I can be protected from getting the virus, they gave me morning after pills.
Mawe was a crying wreck outside the hospital. Zodwa had called her I looked at her she just shrugged her shoulders
"MaNdaba what's happening to you? (Sitting down crying) what did we do in the past that is making our sins follow our kids. Why didn't it happen to me?"
All I could do was to cry. We drove to Soweto as much as I tried by all means to avoid that place I had no choice but to go with Mawe I needed her more . I was back to square one. Luckily when we got out of the car there were no neighbours . Our house was now bigger because of the money I used to get from Dumi. She prepared a bath for me
His horrifying face was still stuck on the back of my mind. My vagina was on fire.
"I will bath you today my daughter" Mawe's eyes were filled with anger
"Mawe where is Zodwa?"
"She is in the kitchen cooking"
"Where is my son? "
"I called Busi to come and get him. He won't come back anytime soon. You need to heal first"
"What is healing? (Chuckling bitterly) I don't want to heal Mawe. He broke me you should have seen his face. I will never forgive him I swear to God"
"Do I know him?"
"Yes Senzo Zwane, Dumisani's little brother"
"Oh nkosiyami (putting her hands on top of her head) you are never going back to that family we are done with them"
"If only I had waited for Lizwi,Mawe I remember your words everyday"
"No don't do that MaNdaba, we learn from our past "
She helped me get out of the bathtub, my body was sore . We went to the kitchen I ate a little bit although it was hard to swallow after that I drank the pills after.
We went to bed early with Zodwa. I saw him coming carrying a knife.
"No .. no .. stop please" I screamed
Zodwa jumped off the bed and switched on the lights
"He is not here baby (Mawe opened the door) it was a nightmare Mawe" Zodwa
"Zodwa loo at how my daughter is (sobbing) that evil man has robbed her peace. She's slowly dying and I can't save her. What do I do uh? I am so helpless"
"Please be strong for her she needs you more than ever" Zodwa spoke wiping her tears
"I saw him Mawe he was here, please don't switch off the lights'
Mawe slept with us. The following morning Zodwa left early going back to our house.
The following days were so hard. I was going through the acute stage. I was continously vomiting and I was feeling numb.
Mawe called me from my room
"Mawe what do you want? "
"Get up or I will pour cold water on you" I giggled she looked at me smiling
I stood up and wore my gown. When I got to the kitchen the Zwanes were there
"Mawe what do they want. I don't want anything that connects me to them"
"Then give them their grandson they will leave you in peace"
"No Siya is my son"
"Good move your ass and go to them".
Going there was a struggle
"MaNdaba we won't ask you about how you are. It is obvious but please don't punish our son for Senzos deeds" Zwane spoke in a low tone.
The dramatic Makheswa started crying
"Makoti please forgive my son he was bewitched by this other old woman from our community, a sangoma proved it" she was calling me makoti because she wanted a favour.
"Kahle Makheswa you know that your son is not a saint. I will kick you out of this house and speak to Makoti without you" Zwane was getting angry
"But Zwane you know how good Senzo was. He can't die in jail"
"He should die isn't it that he is a rapist. Who rapes her brother's girlfriend he's a satanist a demon" Makheswa just cried.
"I hear you Baba, I don't want anything that will connect me with your family" I spoke to him softly
"But why are we suffering for Senzo's evil deeds. What about Dumi who is fighting for his life. When are we seeing Siya? " I stood up
"I don't mean to disrespect you but I will talk to you when I am ready" Makheswa followed me
"MaNdaba please don't tell Dumi about this he will kill Senzo. I wouldn't want to see my sons killing eachother"
"Really (Laughing) that is what you only care about,what about me?" I walked to my bedroom and closed the door .
THREE MONTHS LATER
I was attending the counselling sessions. I was getting back to my normal self although they were few glitches. The only fear I had was to be alone or to be in a place that has men. Vusi was very supportive Dumi was still in coma
I walked inside the centre, well Dr Khumalo was already waiting for me
"How are you Miss Ndaba? You may sit down"
"I am good Doc and you?"
"I am good, today it's your last session how are you feeling? "
"I am excited, I have been seeing progress in the past weeks" she smiled taking her pen and book
"Do you blame Dumi for the incident that happened to you"
"Yes I blame him, if he had not pursued me in the beginning I wouldn't have been raped by his brother. If he was not in a coma he was going to protect me"
"Do you understand that he is not to be blamed here. You always blame people for your mistakes and it's wrong. You are guilty as him. Why did you agree when he asked you out?"
"I was lonely"
"Do you love him? "
"We have a son together"
"I asked if you love him or not"
"I had always imagined by life with Lizwi"
"Do you still love Lizwi enough to let Dumi go?"
"No"
"Ok do you love Dumi"
"Yes I do"
"I want you to do one more task for me. Go to the hospital and visit him. Tell him about how you feel"
"I will think about it"
"I am giving you a day, we will talk the day after tomorrow. I will personally call you"
"Ok Doc"
"We are done Miss Ndaba, it was nice having you. Feel free to call me if you need anything"
"Thank you doc I will definitely call you".
I was taking a break from praying God had failed me in many parts of my life and Mawe wasn't pushing me to pray. I moved back to my house a month ago, I only sold my products outside the tent in a public place. I passed by fish and chips and bought takeaways. When I got home Mawe was sitting down talking to Zodwa
"Sanibonani"
"Hey Gugu how are you?"
"I am good and you Zodwa?" She stood up taking her purse
"I am good I will be right back I want to buy something at the mall"
"Odwa buy me sweets" Siya spoke in a tiny voice we all laughed
"Ok my husband" she kissed him and let running.
"Mawe how was work?"
"It was ok my dear and your side?"
"I wasn't selling today I had gone to Sandton for my last session"
"Ok that is good, so what happened? "
"I will visit Dumi tomorrow"
"That is a good decision my dear. None of this was his fault"
"I am so nervous Mawe, this whole thing is just too scary (smiling) do you think he has changed, like his face or weight? "
Mawe laughed causing Siya to startle
"Are you expecting me to answer you? Nywe nywe I don't love Dumi anymore mhmm I'm watching you".


Dragging my feet getting off the bed going to the bathroom with my head oozing very hard. This felt like a hangover don't ask me how I know it. I rushed to the toilet seat and vomited, sweat had formed on my forehead. I was going to leave Siya behind, I got ready very fast and went to the kitchen to make food
"Good morning Mawe,how are you?"
"I am good and you my daughter ?"
"I am good, I will leave money for you to do groceries. Please do not get sweets for Siya"
"Ok I won't even if he cries and compares me to Zodwa"
"He is manipulative Mawe runaway from his trap" we both laughed I took an apple from the fridge I had no appetite for breakfast.
Deep down I wasn't ok,my heart was crying out for my lover who was fighting for his life. I took a cab it left me in the hospital
The receptionist smiled at me
"How are you Miss Ndaba? It's been long since we saw you"
"I am good (smiling) and you sisi?"
"Good you may go to his room no one is with him" I took a box of chocolates and gave it to her,she loved things I'm sure it's one of the reasons she got excited when she saw me
"Next time I am bringing you roses" she jumped up and down happily.
"Thank you MaNdaba spoil me I am very single" we both laughed
His room was facing the North it had direct sunlight. He was sleeping peacefully
"Zwane, Mangethe how are you? I am so sorry for not coming to visit you (Holding his hand) . These past months were hard for me, Siya fell and broke his leg at school. It was very bad I nearly lost my mind. I was devastated. I can't afford to lose my two favourite men. Then something happened.. Senzo your little brother raped me, he was holding a gun Dumi I was scared I wanted to die at that moment. He .. he slapped me I was hurt he nearly broke my nose. I got him arrested your mom says I shouldn't tell you because you guys will kill each other. The last thing that I want is to separate siblings since I still have mine (wiping her tears) I doubt you will love me the same way you used to love me and I do not want to be known as the woman who separated brothers. This is the end of the road for us. (Tears came out from Dumisani's eyes). Dumi are you crying? Can you hear me? Please do something" he tightened his grip
" I won't leave you Zwane fight for Siya fight for me my love(kissing his lips)" I left earlier joy had filled my heart. I called Dr Khumalo telling her about Dumi's progress She was so happy. Those were the last step of my healing.
The cab left me at home
"Mawe it smells so nice I am so hungry"
"Stand up and dish for everyone don't forget to include Zodwa's plate"
"Mommy I am tired, I can't even move my hands" She stood up annoyed
"You are very lazy I wonder if you know how to move in bed"
I laughed so much
"Look who is talking? My virgin Mary (Mawe laughed). Ask me how I made that boy Siya, you will be shocked. I might be lazy in everything but not in that department count me out"
we were laughing like crazy people
"Say no more Gugu I don't want to dirty my thoughts. My body is the temple of God"
"Zodwa doesn't lock her room, you may put her food on her TV stand"
"You are drunk Gugu stand up put that food in her room"
We ate making a light conversation. Siya was playing with her food throwing it on the ground
"Hey wena Siya I will beat you up right now stop this nonsense " he started crying
"I want baba" I looked at Mawe she sadly picked him up.Siya was so spoiled and tiring. I took the toys that his father bought him when he was a week. He kept quiet and played with his toys
"Are you full Siya? Don't you want food anymore " He nodded.
After washing dishes Mawe prayed and shared a verse.
"Do not give up on God Gugu he will answer your prayers"
"I will pray when the time is right"
TWO WEEKS LATER
Everybody said I looked like a zombie but I really didn't really care about my looks, all I wanted was my man. My body was slowly giving up on me but I kept pushing on, Vusi was very supportive I was back at church. I haven't had a good night sleep in long time. I couldn't even bring myself to spend time with my son because he reminded me of his father so much the more he grew up was the more he looked like Dumi. I couldn't sit with him without crying. I missed him so much the will of surviving was slowly fading .
It had been 11 months since I received that call about Dumi. Doctors were not giving me any accurate date of him waking up.The family was encouraging me to hold on but MaKheswa was acting like a spoilt brat.With everything that was happening I was getting back to God's embrace I knew that he was my source of strength
"Sisi you need to bath and go to the hospital"
"Mawe I can't. I'm tired of seeing him like that(crying) he looks hopeless .Why won't Dumi wake up Mawe?"
"Sisi you heard what the doctors said, he can hear your voice. You need to go and talk to him, encourage him to wake up. Tell him that he is a conqueror"
Zwane was having tea with Siya
"Your aunt is right maNdaba. My son needs you now more than ever" I didn't even hear MaKheswa walk in
"You need to be strong for your son and your man MaNdaba " she spoke softly you could tell that she was slowly giving up
"I hear you. Ok let me go and prepare myself" I got myself ready, we went to the hospital with Vumani driving us he hardly spoke to me because he was embarassed by the evil deeds of his little brother.
UMangethe wami looked so handsome. His father regularly shaved his beard . I walked closer and sat on the chair next to the bed. I took his hand into mine and my tears just flowed
"Dumi you need to fight for us. Siya is turning two in a couple of weeks and you have to be there. I can't spend time with my child because he looks so much like you it hurts. I miss you. Your parents and your siblings miss you. We all need you. You have to start your businesses, remember how excited you were about starting them. You have to come back and build a legacy for your son. I love you. I need you. Please wake up" I was a sobbing mess. I fell asleep on the chair Bab'Zwane woke me up.
"I'm sorry I fell (rubbing her eyes) asleep"
"You need the rest maNdaba there is no need for you to apologise
He will wake up. He will come back to you"
"When Baba? When? I am tired of people giving me false hope"
"When the time is right, he will wake up" I just nodded
In two days time my boy was turning two. I was happy that Siya was growing and sad because Dumi was still in his coma. There had not been any improvement to his condition and at this point I had lost hope. I wasn't going to throw a party for him, my poor boy missed his dad. He didn't understand why his dad was not waking up. He had even given up on trying to wake him up he often shook him.
It was finally his birthday my baby was turning 2. I got up very early and prepared myself for the day. I woke him up he opened his beautiful eyes yawning
"Happy birthday my boy" he looked at me and giving me his contagious smile. I couldn't help but smile. This right here was my reason for living.
We first went to the hospital to see his father. Siya kissed him sitting on top of him I got the shock of my life he opened his eyes. I ran to the passage screaming for the nurse
"Nurse nurse he has opened his eyes, thank you God.(crying ) Thank you Jesus"
Those who trust in the Lord shall renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles,they will run and not grow weary,they will walk and not faint.

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THE UNKEPT WIFE Sequence 15-16

Everything that was happening to me felt like a dream. Tiny hands touched my face,my eyes opened there was my son. I got off the bed carrying him going to the kitchen
"Mawe you are already going?"
"Yes Gugu I am working today"
"I thought I was going to leave Siya with you as I go to the Postnet to fix my CVs" she sighed
"Put Siya on your back and do what every mother does. It's about time you man up. I am sure you want everything to be given to you Gugu,stop feeling as if you are entitled to everything and the world owes you nothing"
"I didn't say I will leave him behind anyway it's fine Mawe"
I went to the bathroom to get my son and myself ready. After eating we walked to Postnet to get my CVs created , I made twenty copies. I was handing out my CV in most of the shops I caught a glimpse of a manager from Steers squashing it and throwing it in the dustbin that really broke my heart.
We got home around two, Vumani walked in carrying groceries
"How are you MaNdaba? "
"I am good and you Zwane?" He smiled revealing his perfect teeth
"I am good, I came to drop this by the way I am in a hurry"
"Thank you Bhuti please greet MakaZuzi for me" he nodded picking up Siya. They looked so adorable together that made me miss Dumi more. He kissed his forehead and left.
I took a pen and drafted my ideas fast I wasn't going to let my son starve . After remembering the tupperware and avon papers under my cupboard, I quickly grabbed my phone and called Nosipho to come over within 30 minutes she was already in my house
"Hey Nosi how are you?" She smiled
"I am good and you sisi?" I stood up and got her juice
"I am good ,I wanted to tell you that I am ready to sell Avon and Tupperware" she smiled
"I promise you Gugu you will make good money as long as you are dedicated"
"Give me the forms I will fill them now. I will sell it in my church"
"That would work Gugu plus people from church are supportive and you can also join me in my corner"
"I will start selling from tomorrow, I need to make money as soon as possible" she laughed
"That is the spirit independent women are the best" she stood up
"I won't leave you far Nosi Siya is sleeping"
"Ok dear"
We spoke about the money for buying stock that wasn't a problem I was going to use Siya's money that we got from his birthday. I used the money in the card to pay rent for next eight months we were left with few cents.
Aunty came back around six
"How was your day Mawe?" She threw herself on the couch
"Good Gugu how was yours?"
"Ok, I will dish up for you now. After eating may you please help me move the things in the other two bedrooms to my main room"
"Why should we move them?"
"I will rent them out, I will prefer women. I don't trust men especially if it's me alone" she smiled
"What happened to my daughter " I laughed
"Life happened"
We washed dishes and moved everything to my main bedroom. We slept around one am. The next morning I left with aunty in the morning. I pasted my numbers on the pick and pay boards.
I took a taxi to the hospital. His mother stood up when she saw me
"Gugu my daughter how are you?"
"I am good ma and you?" She shook her head sniffing
"Look at you now, this is bad it hasn't been a week but you are already like this. Do not give up my love" she hugged me I couldn't hold my sobs anymore
"When is he waking up? "
"I wish I knew, Siya come to gogo" I handed Siya to Makheswa and went to Dumi,he was laying there looking lifeless
"Mangethe it's Gugu I wanted to tell you that I have started a business of selling to provide for Siya as you are still busy fighting for your life. Fight Zwane fight (yelling) Mangethe fight for your son he needs you to come back and play soccer with him. Fight muntu wami" tears were coming out effortlessly . I wanted to have faith but my fears were failing me. Zwane wasn't himself I could see that he was troubled he truly loved Dumi because he was a yes sir child he never questioned his parents.
"Baba all is going to be ok" he looked at me with his eyes full of doubt
"I hope so my daughter, are you coping though? I feel like you are too young to deal with this ordeal"
" I am getting there baba, I believe that he will fight for us. I am leaving I will see you weekend" Makheswa gave me my son who was already sleeping.
Six different people called me enquiring about the rooms. I told them everything I ended up choosing two women who were Christians because I didn't want those people who were going to rock in the house around three am drunk.
They both moved in within two days, they had no kids and they were very sweet. I had started selling my tupperware products and avon products house by house it was the easiest way to get more money. I quietly sat on the rock wiping my forehead which was full of sweat as the sun was scorching. I already had few clients that motivated me to work harder. I had taken Siya to crèche he was really excited about being in a different environment, he was only used to having me around.
It had been two months since Dumi slipped into the coma it wasnt easy for me but we were surviving. My church members used to visit and pray for him.
For the very first time since I moved in with Dumi I ate chicken feet they were affordable.
"Siya come and eat enough with your books now" my son loved colouring
When I gave him the food he shook his head screaming
"I will beat you up now shut up" he continued screaming Zodwa got out of her room
"My boy come here why are you crying? What is mommy doing to my handsome husband? We will beat mommy" He went to her
"Siya is crazy Zodwa he doesn't want to eat he thinks I am his father, he has to eat whatever I cook " Zodwa laughed
"I will give him my food he doesn't want what you cooked Gugu, those chicken feet look scary uh" we both laughed
"He has to eat different dishes so that he can easily adapt the day he suffers"
Zodwa fed him he ate until he was full this boy was going to be the death of me. We prayed before going to bed I had trained him well he knew how to close his eyes and kneel before bed .
We woke up around six am and got ready for the day I had made a simple lunchbox. I left Siya at crèche and went to my spot where I sell my things. People started ordering early it was surely my lucky day I prayed thanking God.
Around two I received a call " no not Siya oh my God please send me directions" words failed me all I could do was to cry running to a taxi rank like a mad woman.
God had failed my family.


Tears were clouding my eyes I could barely see the road my heart was beating very fast .
Each heartbeat was accompanied by a hiccup .
"Hey you do you want me to kill you? Are you drunk?" I was in front of his BMW, he looked at me pissed, he got out of the car and came to me
"Are you okay sisi?"
"No (shaking her head) I'm not I just received a call saying my son is in the hospital" he helped me to stand up because I had fallen in front of his car.
"Let's get inside the car,do you know the hospital he was taken to? "
"They said he is Johannesburg hospital I don't know why they took him that far they should have taken him to Netcare he has a medical aid"
"We will drive to hospital it's fine, take that cloth behind you and wipe your face. People will say I am abusive " I laughed
"Thank you but do you really care about what people say? I often do what I think is right. What my heart wants and I will face the consequences later" He laughed showing his dimples
"You are a definition of a crazy person , a risk taker for sure. Are you married?"
"No not yet but I stay with the father of my son and you?"
"No I am not, how long have you been staying with him?"
"Nearly two years" he shook his head
"I don't want to lie to you but the chances of you getting married to him are slim. When a man wants to marry you he doesn't stay that long without talking about marriage. Be alert my sister" he was starting to annoy me, Dumi loved me more than anything and he was never going to hurt me.
"What's your name again bhuti?"
"Vusi Dlomo and you ? "
"Gugu Ndaba we have been talking like friends forgetting that we didn't introduce ourselves to each other."
"It's nice knowing you just give me your phone number since we are already here. Do you want me to go in with you?"
"Yes let's go together I have already sent my sisters messages" he opened the door for me he was a gentleman. He told me about himself, luckily we were from the same church just different branches what a great coincidence it was.
We walked inside the Charlotte Maxeke unit and went to the receptionist I was so scared of the unknown.
"Good day mam"
"Good day mam how are you?"
"I wish I was good, I am looking for my baby who was admitted here today by his teacher." She checked the files
"May you please give me his name"
"Siyabonga Ndaba" she got busy using her computer after a minute she looked at us
"Ok you may go to the third floor the second ward from your left"
My body was sweating , my breathing changed Vusi held my hand.
When we got inside the ward my son was crying
"Mama mama come " I ran to him with tears in my eyes
"What happened Ndaba? Oh my God why has the Lord forsaken me this much" his teacher walked in
"Miss Ndaba how are you?"
"You clearly don't expect me to say I'm good right ? What happened to my son? Why is he here?"
"He fell from a seesaw and broke his leg" his hands held me
"Gugu be strong you can't break down like this in front of your son" my screams and sobs were too much
"Vusi God has forsaken me, I am too young to handle this. His father is in a Coma fighting for his life while my son is here with a broken a leg" he kept on hugging me comforting my soul. I wanted to believe that all things were working for my good, that I am going through trials and tribulations but that was hard for me.
Mawe walked in with my sisters
"Oh MaNdaba come here" I moved away from Vusi's embrace and went to aunty.
"his leg is broken Mawe how am I going to win this test that is happening in my life? Uh why is God choosing me ? Why not others?"
"Why not you MaNdaba? When it rains it pours. Not all storms that come into your life are there to destroy you. Some are there to clear the dirt which is in your way of succeeding. Be strong and courageous God has your back"
"God doesn't love me (crying) I won't pray anymore I am done Mawe"
"No you are not remember how Job suffered? Do you remember him cursing God?"
"No he didn't but I'm not Job"
"Good you will pray and overcome because you are stronger than him" I rubbed my eyes nodding. This was a test and I wasn't going to give up.
I gave Vusi my numbers and thanked him.
Busi looked at me
"Gugulethu who is that guy who was hugging you? Have you moved on already? Are you forgetting that Dumi is in hospital fighting for his life?"
"He is a stranger Busi who helped me today. Stop jumping into conclusions. You guys always want to fight with me even if I don't" she looked sorry
"I am sorry my love"
Zinzi was busy comforting my son.
The doctor came and gave him the medication for pain. Zinzi and I slept in the hospital. Zinzi was married to man who was perfect if there was any perfect man. Busi often admired their relationship it was a true love relationship. They were actually relationship goals.
Zinzi woke me up around 1 am
"Let's pray Gugu the devil is fighting you don't let him win"
"Ok Zinzi"
We knelt down praying words were failing me but God knew what my heart was saying.
Siya stayed in the hospital for two weeks. The Zwanes came to see him, Makheswa called everyday. My son had a plaster on his left leg.
"Gugu it's better for me to take care of Siya since you are always working to meet your needs"
"Are you sure Mawe ? What about your job?" She smiled
"You don't have to worry Gugu my boss love kids. She doesn't mind I asked her first before coming to you"
"Thank you Mawe I love you so much. I am nothing without you" she laughed
"You are nothing without God"
"Yes you are right mamfundisi (they both laughed ) let me pack his clothes"
I packed his clothes in my mini travelling bag. Siya was so excited about leaving with Mawe. Siya loved anyone who was leaving the house. I accompanied them and gave them money for groceries
"Mama I love you"
"I love you too my son mama will visit you mhn" he kissed me
"Bye mama" I was getting all emotional
"Do not mind me Mawe it's my first time being separated from Siya I already miss him"
"You can always call when you miss him Gugu or visit us"
It had been eight months since Dumi slipped into a coma. My business was blooming Vusi and I were prayer partners he was very powerful.Mawe and Siya used to come every friday to visit me for the weekend and they left every Sunday in the evening.
I woke up around 10, my mood was just sour. All I needed was a shower to boost my mood. Zodwa was off every Tuesday so I knew that she was going to accompany me to the hospital to visit Dumi.
I heard the door opening
"Zodwa hurry up we have to visit Siya's father. Zodwa Zodwa" I took my lotion and removed my towel she was clearly keeping quiet on purpose, I was so used to her childish behaviour . The door of my bedroom opened it was Senzo.
I shouted at him taking my towel trying to hard my naked self
"Senzo I am naked go outside, since when do you get inside my bedroom " his look was horrifying he looked like a beast
"I finally saw the sexy body that drives my brother crazy" he was coming close while I was moving backward
"What .. what .. do.. you want Senzo?" I was so scared my intestines were cringing, my tears were watering my face
"Why are you crying you whore? I want to do you a favour by meeting your needs and you are busy crying. You should be grateful that I care about you eight months without getting sex is not a joke unless if you are fucking your pastor " I nervously asked him a question, but I knew what he meant .
"What are you talking about ?" I tried running towards the door he pulled me by my weave and slapped me not once or twice but multiple times. I was crying and praying hoping that Zodwa will come and save me
"Senzo please stop oh my God you are hurting me" I slapped him he got more angry took out his gun
"Sleep on that bed and open your legs" I wanted to be saved not even God was capable of doing that
"Senzo think about Dumi he is going to get hurt"
"Gugu shut the fuck up" he removed his clothes thus when I knew that reality had kicked in. His shaft was big I closed my eyes I wanted this pain to pass
"Today I am going to give you what you want" I sobbed softly my voice disappeared,tears rolled down my cheek. My soul was slowly drifting away from my body. He was looking murderous and proud
He pushed his hard shaft inside me I felt an excruciating pain that was separating my soul from my body. He moved inside me very fast he was clearly tearing my vagina
"You better shake Gugu or we will do this shit the whole day" he pinched my nipples I felt his hot come inside me.
"Fuck that was so good we should do this more often. I know that you enjoyed. You should stop pretending as if you are innocent (Laughing) you loved it right?" he stood up and dressed leaving twenty rands next to me.
I often imagined the sound of tension as an ear gritting sound,like finger nails being dragged down the blackboard but at this moment there was nothing but silence.
Everything was swirling around me,all that had been static before had discarded it's roots and blew away hope love God faith..

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THE UNKEPT WIFE Sequence 13-14

The atmosphere had changed. Zwane stood up going outside,Dumi followed him.
"You are so hot headed all my life my son has never said no to whatever I say . What did you feed him? I know how you so called Christians are."
"Ma we are leaving today I will go and pack our things now" she laughed bitterly
"Wonders shall never end,go and do what you have to do MaNdaba"
Crying was the last thing I was ever going to do in front of her.She wanted me to be angry but I wasn't going to give her that satisfaction.
After an hour Dumi walked in angry,he gave me a warning look I am sure he was reprimanding me . Well too bad asking him anything was the last thing I was going to do.
"Zwane go and bath we are leaving soon"
"Ok you may go and take Siya from mom"
with that said he walked out. He wasn't himself. Everything was now in order
"Ma may you please give me Siya I want to bath him"
"I will do it,you may go and bath. Leave his clothes on top of the bed or bring them to me"
I gave her Siya's things and went to the bathroom
"I will join you and I'm not taking no as an answer" he looked at me licking his lower lip
"Gugu my parents are here we are not going to do anything"
"Well I am here to bath,I never said we will do anything"
When we were done with everything Senzo came to pick us up.
"Go well MaNdaba take care of my grandson" Zwane said it smiling he was down to earth
"Thank you Baba"
"You may go well and don't forget to send us money Dumi these days we don't see anything from you. You should come one of the good days so that you can vomit and clean your stomach not forgetting those evil spirits you eat unknowingly"
Who eats evil spirit this woman was clearly testing me. Dumi went and hugged his mother and took Siya .
He opened the door for me I got inside the car angry
"Makoti are you ok?"
"I am ok Senzo what do you want?"
"Don't bite my head off I'm not Dumi"
"Good so don't ask me anything that doesn't concern you" Dumi was outside speaking to his parents. He was taking long,which was now irritating me.
He opened the door and handed Siya to me. My son was very bubbly and loveable. He wasn't scared of people but he loved being carried.
The drive to Johannesburg was very long and boring everyone was quiet.
We got home around 10pm. I carried my son who was sleeping. We went to bed we were both exhausted.
Siya cried it was already morning Dumi never came to bed maybe he was angry with me.
They came out of the room around 12
"Good morning "
Senzo responded
"Morning MaNdaba"
"Gugu where is my son?"
"He is sleeping"
Senzo ate his breakfast very fast and left.
"Dumi what's wrong with you?"
"What do you mean makaSiya?"
"You are avoiding me"
"You shouldn't have spoken to my mother in that manner.I feel like I am not a man enough. Gugu you do realise that I am the only one who is working here.How was I going to raise money for lobolo?"
"I am so sorry Mangethe but your mother hates me"
"I spoke to her, if she disrespects you again she will lose me for good"
"I love you Zwane"
"You are everything that I think about. Nothing makes me happy than the fact that I was your first and I promise to keep you happy until the end of time" tears were slowly coming out of my eyes.
"How do you make me so weak effortlessly? You are the only thing that matters in my life. You and Siya give me a reason to look forward for tomorrow. Thank you for standing up for me in front of your mom" he kissed my forehead
"I would do anything to make you happy Gugu (Holding her hand close to his chest) it only beats for you. You make me sane" I giggled
"So do you my love, I don't regret getting pregnant with Siya although you tricked me" He laughed
"No I didn't my seeds are powerful,they cross all the barriers. Talking about that it reminds me that you need to use contraceptives"
"I am using them that is why I am allowing you to do whatever you want to do with my cookie"
"I hope they will work as a man who drinks imbiza I trust my sperms to get you pregnant anytime from now" he carried me to the bedroom
"Stop Dumi I don't want to get pregnant" he chuckled sinking in my neck.
"I love how you widen your eyes when I am about to make love to you"
"Stop it Dumi" he laughed
"It's been long now baby,I am taking our sex life to the next level. As your teacher I can assure you that you passed level 1"
"You are crazy (Laughing)I am not listening to anything that you are saying" he squeezed my breasts
"I want to suck them so bad but I can't since my boy took over. Is that milk nice?"
"How am I supposed know since I can't suck my own breasts" he took out my breast and started sucking it. He got off the bed rushing to the toilet. He found me laughing at him
"Is it nice baby? " he took a towel wiping his tongue
"I respect Siya he is the man, who drinks that uh? I respect my boy"
We spent the whole day in bed. He took out papers underneath the wardrobe
"This is my business plan. I want to go into transportation and property. We have to start with transportation first it is the easiest one. If I save enough money I will buy two big cars" I went through the paper the whole idea was appealing to me
"Explain this transportation thing for me"
"We will take people from the airport and deliver them to their hotels. The other car will travel to long distances like taking and delivering people from Johannesburg to East London or Durban"
"I love it Mangethe I will support whatever you do my love" he kissed my hand
"Pray to your God for me"
"I will definitely do that. I saw our church near the rank . I will starting going there from Sunday"
"Please don't sing "
"I will sing when the time is right"
"When that happens I will go with you to church phela I have to mark my territory. Stop laughing at me Gugu"
"I am not"
Dumi woke me up the next morning he wanted me to make breakfast for him. I went to the bathroom to get a quick shower.
"What do you want to eat baby?"
"Corn flakes honey"
"Comeon Dumi you woke me up for cornflakes?are you seriously kidding me?" He smiled
"I wanted to see you before leaving" he kissed me gently rubbing my ass
"I love you, don't worry I will make your breakfast"
I gave him his lunchbox and kissed him one last time.
After cleaning the house I bathed Siya and fed him. Aunty walked in around 11
"Mawe how are you? "
"I am good you sisi? Siya how are you my boy?"
"Go to Mawe my boy. I have been waiting for you since forever. I respect your nine o'clock" she laughed
"I knew you were going to say that. Nonetheless I am here. Is everything alright?"
"No Dumisani's mom disrespected me so bad. I can't believe it" I told her everything that happened in Durban
"I love the fact that Dumi stood by you. I hope you will never disrespect his mother again. You should never speak bad about his mother. Loving and respecting his mother will work for your own advantage. If you want make a man happy respect his mother,call his mother and laugh with her. If the mother gets to love you. They are high chances that she will never accept another woman that Dumi brings home excluding you"
"I didn't know that Mawe"
"What you did was wrong, why did you visit them when you know that they paid nothing for you?"
"I am sorry Mawe" she clicked her tongue
"You love making decisions without asking me or thinking them through"
"From today I will ask you Mawe"
"Ok MaNdaba"
"Did you see the money that I sent you? "
"Yes my angel that was a lot thank Dumi for me"
"I will"
The truth is Dumi knew nothing about the money I had sent.
"You should send money to his family too. They should get what I get Gugu,love his parents as you love me"
"I am not married to him"
"You got yourself married,so do what is right"
"Thank you for everything Mawe,you always guide me and give me knowledge "
"It's my duty to guide you. Don't thank me"
It was now a month before Siya turned one I called Makheswa
"How are you ma?"
"I am good who am I talking to? "
"You are talking to Gugu"
"Ow"
"Yes ma first I would like to apologise for my behaviour. I wasn't taught to disrespect I allowed my feelings to take over. Please forgive me ma" she sighed
"We all make mistakes MaNdaba"
"Ma Siya is turning one next month may you please come and celebrate with us. Your presence will be highly appreciated"
"Oh really that is good my daughter. I miss uNdaba,I will talk to Zwane"
The Ndaba came out in a sarcastic manner this woman was a toe of Satan.
"Thank you ma have a great day ahead"
"You too MaNdaba"
I sent her money it was a lot of it. That day Dumi came home happy
"You didn't tell me that you and mom are now friends" he grabbed my ass
"Why should I tell you everything my crazy man?"
"I love it when my two favourite women are getting along"
"Mhmm your son is breaking things go and check him out".
Dumisani's parents came two days before the party I took care of them. Makheswa was a wise woman. Behind that devil's mask there was a woman with wisdom.
"MaNdaba you are great cook" I smiled
"Thank you ma"
"I can't wait to see the woman who raised you"
"She will come today to help us with cooking"
Aunty came around 5 they were chatting with Makheswa as if they were best friends. Busi and her family came the following day,Zinzi was going to come late her husband had other commitments in the morning.
The day for the party came Dumi was very happy
Siya was wearing a suit,my son looked handsome.
The Mc stood up "Good day my people I can't believe that this small boy made us to come here. What do I expect? Tell black people about free food they come in multitudes" everyone laughed he continued
"Jokes aside we will pray before we proceed" Mawe stood up and prayed .
We played house music which was voted by many people Siya was jumping up and down. Everyone danced Zwane was laughing he was drinking Brandy.
The MC stood up "now that you have eaten and you are full let's give our boy presents"
People stood up handing the MC presents.
Dumi went to get a microphone to thank the people
"Thank you for joining us today. My son is officially one I would like to thank his mother who gave life to him. I love you MaNdaba . I greatly acknowledge the presence of our parents and also those who are our friends not forgetting my colleagues. Last but not least thank you MC and those who were not invited thank you for finishing our beers" people laughed
It was now my turn to talk
"I am a shy person please don't mind me(Laughing), I would like to thank you for gracing us with your presence to celebrate my son's birthday . I will sing one song"
The song I sang left people with their mouths hanging. Dumi was hugging my crying self.
Dumisani's parents left the following day I packed some groceries for them his mother couldn't stop talking about my voice .
I couldn't wait to see the birthday pictures.
It was now one week after the party Dumi didn't wake me up for the very first time I got grumpy. Siya was in the kitchen he had broken my favourite cup I screamed
"Siya" he jumped crying
"Sorry my boy,mom is sorry do not cry" my phone rang, I didn't recognise the number I answered the phone
"What. . No.." I crumbled on the floor crying
"No Dumi no"..


Hurt Hopelessness Pain yes it was painful tears descended from my eyeballs. My feet couldn't carry me anymore, I crumbled on the ground everything happened so fast my heartbeat increased Siya was crying wiping my tears. My hands couldn't envelope him. His cries were not deafening, he kept on wiping my tears he was in shock. He started rolling on the ground seeking for my attention but my mind was far away. Zoning out was something I was familiar with it only happened when I was shocked .
"MaNdaba! MaNdaba" he walked out calling his wife.
"Gugu look at Siya (shaking her) look at him he is traumatised" Vumani spoke with a commanding voice words failed me they couldn't come out
"Siya ... Dumi. .no" I was running out of words
"MakaZuzi put Siya down let's carry her to the bathroom I am sure she's having a panic attack"
"Ok Baba, Siya my boy go and sit there" Siya sat on the couch.
Vumani and his wife carried me to the bathroom. They poured cold water on me,MakaZuzi laid me on her lap
"Calm down Gugu breath in and breath out. You have to be strong,what is Siya going to do if you are doing this. Vumani go to the kitchen and take care of Siya I will be right back"
Vumani nodded and walked out he was the first born of Makheswa he looked like Zwane but he was the most humblest person ever who feared God.
MakaZuzi opened hot water on the bathtub helping me get out of the shower. The water was warm and soothing
"Gugu the devil comes in many ways to distract peace. You need to understand that all things work together for our good. God remains faithful in your tests and problems. You need to have faith that is small as the mustard seed" she rubbed my back
"He said he is dead,how will I move on Thembi?" She lightly chuckled
"He is not dead whoever told you that gave you the wrong information. He's in the hospital I am not sure if going with you today is going to be a good idea" Thembi spoke lightly
"I need to see him MakaZuzi" she rubbed my shoulders
"We will go tomorrow,let me go and make you coffee" I looked at her smiling
"Thank you MakaZuzi" she patted my shoulders
"We are a family do not thank me Gugu. Get out of the water before you get sick" I smiled
"Yes ma'am" she smiled walking out
We spent the whole day praying for Dumi. I was praying for his revival and for his healing. MakaZuzi cooked lunch,she was a prayer warrior I was under her wing. She loved me, I often sang when I was in their church. They left my house around 6.
It was now seven O'clock the time that Dumi often comes home.
I looked outside the window as usual but tonight was a different night ,he wasn't coming home,no he wasn't I broke down. Siya was sleeping sucking his thumb.
"Dear God please protect Dumi. Save him for me I love him. Siya and I still need him. You are the Lord that heals,that saves and restores life. All things are done through you Amen" I kept on tossing and tossing I only slept after midnight.
I was woken up by my phone ringing it was Makheswa
"MaNdaba I know you are not alright my daughter. Vumani will come and fetch you now. I am sorry I couldn't call you yesterday I was in shock" this woman was talkative
"Ok ma let me get ready"
"Pray to your God for my son to get healed, I will speak to his ancestors so that they can intervene too and heal my son"
"I hear you ma I will pray for him".
I sent Mawe a message she immediately called
"Be strong and courageous God has our back. When you get to the hospital please update me"
"I will do that Mawe" we spoke for few minutes.
Siya hated to be woken up, getting him ready was a struggle. I bathed fast, and made breakfast for my son I couldn't eat. The truth is when one faces challenges praying and eating becomes hard. My stomach was twisting and cringing,it often happened when I was nervous.
Vumani came and took Siya's bag which had his food and pampers.
We got inside his huge car
"MakaSiya did you eat anything in the morning?"
"Yes BabakaZuzi"
"I don't trust you" we passed by Mcdonald he bought me a hot chocolate and a burger. I finished the food within a blink of an eye he looked at me through the mirror and smiled. I had not realised that I was hungry.
We finally reached the Sunninghill hospital, luckily Dumi and I had medical aid. I was panicking Vumani patted my back
"Do not be scared he needs you more than ever now"
Tears were slowly building up
"What happened Bhuti? I forgot to ask you"
"He was in a car accident" he wanted to continue but he stopped himself.
When we reached his room his parents came to me
"MaNdaba how are you?" Zwane asked taking Siya from me
"I don't know Baba but I know I will be strong for Siya"
"Do that my daughter" he left me with Makheswa
"Oh Gugu my son is so helpless" she cried hugging me. His brothers were standing outside his room Muzi looked at me with eyes full of sympathy .
I walked inside his room my man was there looking lifeless he was connected to the machines . I sat next to him holding his hand
"Zwane Mangethe please wake up for me, open your eyes please baby. Siya is waiting for you. Come back home baba" my head was on top of him. He was my home, the man I loved.
Makheswa patted my back she was no longer that evil woman but the broken woman.
Dumi was in Coma the reports came back saying his brain was still responding but they didn't know how long he was going to stay in that situation and they didn't know if he was ever going to wake up .They were avoiding to give us false hope.
I called Mawe and informed her about the tragedy that fell over my family.
I was unemployed and I had nothing to back me up. If only I had listened to Mawe but my stubbornness always won.
Vumani drove us home, he shook me
"MaNdaba we are already here are you sure you are ok? Do you want to sleep in our house?"
"No bhuti Mawe is coming"
I carried Siya to the house who was already sleeping.
Mawe came around six
"Hey MaNdaba how are you?"
"I am not ok Mawe" I cried while she was comforting me
"Now you have to be strong,what are you going to do now?"
"I don't know Mawe I am confused"
"I'm sorry my angel but I told you to find a job you came with excuses. What are you going to do now my Kept wife" I rubbed my teary eyes
"Mawe why are we talking about the past? You are mocking me in my misery. Anyway don't worry about me I will make a plan"
" Do not play the victim card sisi. Go and find a job sisi do what you have to do".

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THE UNKEPT WIFE Sequence 11-12

His hands were so tiny it hit home,thousands of emotions evoked in my heart. I was a mom, I had given birth to a handsome fellow he was nothing like me you would swear that it was girl.
It reminded me of the very first day I moved in with Dumi he had looked at me with eyes piercing through the depths of my soul. I was so transparent to him. I don't know how he had tamed the she-cheeky-beast in me but I swear it felt good "Gugu I know you are not ready to be a mother and we sinned against God
all I want is for you to let me in,let me take care of you. Let me love you the way you deserve to be loved" I never regretted staying with him.
I used to send him all over the places just to get my cravings, sometimes I would laugh at him. They say our moods when we are pregnant they often chase men away but my so called lover never left he kept on following me around. That often pissed me off he knew it but he was persistent.
"Gugu why are you crying? " I laughed blinking my tears away
"Mawe I didn't notice that I was crying. I am just happy that I have Siya in my arms. I know that I will do anything to protect my son. He looks cute (wiping her tears) I didn't know that being a mother could evoke such emotions. My emotions are all over the place I always thought I was an ice queen but hey this boy has tamed me'"
She smiled through tears
"I don't know how it feels to give birth but I raised you like my own. I know how eager I was to protect you. This is mother hood for you and I hope that this baby tamed your stubbornness" I grinned
"You know that it's genetically so it won't leave it's here to stay" we both laughed.
Siya started crying I had to pick him up with care because he was tiny. I laid him on my left arm and started breastfeeding him
"Ouch this hurts I swear my nipples feel like they have been set on fire" aunty laughed
"Make sure that he doesn't look up or he is going to get chocked when he pukes" after breastfeeding him I laid him on top of my shoulder I wanted him to burp.
"Gugu you are not supposed to have sex. You will only have sex after three months" I laughed shyly
"Hhawu Mawe'
"I am serious I hope you will listen to me for once"
"I do listen to you, I won't have sex until I'm 40"
"I am not stupid you lousy girl. Come let me tie your stomach. I don't want you to have lovehandles" I stood up she tied me
"Ouch this hurts,you tightened it too much Mawe" she showed me her straight face
"Does it feel like you are losing your virginity" I laughed until tears came out
"I don't know what you are talking about I am still a Virgin" she laughed
"Yazi people are misusing secondary virginity. You are busy thinking about sex but you are saying you are a Virgin" we both laughed
"Leave me alone, I am feeling hungry what did you cook?"
"Pap and chicken,leave some for Dumi" I stood up and went to the kitchen
"I have to get pregnant again if it means that I won't be cooking. This smells good I swear I missed your cooking"
"Uhm so you say,did you see Lizwi?"
"I am happy please don't say things that will ruin my mood. How's Thando?"
"She is good she has been asking about you. Bab'mfundisi was asking about you he says he misses your worshipping services"
"Just like the prodigal son I will come back home but I have to fix myself and my mistakes"
"You do know that when the prodigal son came back home he had nothing with him that is how God manifests he says come as you are though your sins are red as scarlet I shall wash them white as snow."
"Amen preach woman of God go deeper" we laughed she lightly slapped me
Dumi came back home earlier he was carrying toys
"MaNdaba how are you?" I smiled
"Good you Zwane? (Opening the plastic bags)Did you really have to buy cars ? Siya is not even a week old but he already has toys of a 3 years old person " he laughed
"I saw the toys and I just fell in love with them. I don't want him to lack anything "
I went and kissed him
"You are going to be a good father but just stop overdoing it or you will fail dismally"
He devoured my mouth throwing me on the bed. His hands slid into my pants touching my slicky and wet cookie
"Stop Dumi no sex for you until Siya is three months" he complained
"But baby why? Why should we wait for three months?"
"Thus how things are done Dumi don't ask me those questions go and ask aunty" he laughed
"What do you want me to say to her? Should I say 'aunty why can't I have sex with Gugu?why should I wait for three months?' But Gugu do white people wait for that long?" I laughed
"The last time I checked you were black"
He went out of the bedroom complaining I laughed packing Siya's toys that his crazy father had bought for him.
Aunty was doing most of the house duties,she stayed with us for three months. She was gawking at us she definitely wanted us not to have sex.
I gave her money for groceries
"Gugu I know you are going to be a good mother. When you need me I will always be home. When it gets too tough pray, my child include God in whatever you do"
"I will always do that,I pray that God gives me strength to be the woman that you are. To carry the wisdom that you have"
"You will child, I love you" she kissed Siya who was giggling.
I cooked a simple dish I was really tired motherhood wasn't giving me a chance to rest .
Dumi came back home carrying fruits
"Babakhe you came back earlier"
"Yes I finished my things early" Siya cried I went to the room to get him. I started breastfeeding him, I caught a glimpse of Dumi smiling. When I was done feeding him he stopped crying
"Give him to me baby" I handed him Siya
"Handle him with care Dumi" I don't know what Dumi did or how he handled him what I know is that Siya puked on his face .
"Ah Siya this is so gross take your spoilt brat" laughing
"I warned you, you are too hot headed Zwane"
I dished for Dumi, he ate his dinner while I was busy getting Siya to sleep. I went to our bedroom and removed the laundry that was on top of the bed
I felt him rubbing himself behind me.
"I missed you so much Gugu" I was already on contraceptives getting pregnant again was out of the way
"Dumi" he made me face him
"I love you MaNdaba" he sucked my lower lip making me moan
He slowly removed my dress, he admired my stomach kissing it. He laid me on the bed looking at me with hunger and thirst
"Thank you for giving me an heir" I helped him remove my panty my waist was already on the air.
He removed his shirt, I was busy admiring his muscles. He went in between my legs and separate my folds using his tongue.
His tongue was fucking every corner of my cookie. I held the sheets tightly I was close to coming
"Oh no Dumi please " he pinched my clit I fell apart shattering my legs were shaking . He came back to my mouth I tasted myself on him. His cock hit my entrance tapping it
"Dumi" he was frustrating me I was getting impatient I wanted him inside of me. He slidded inside me and stood still not moving
"Move please" with in few minutes Siya cried
"Oh my gosh"
"Wait baby let me come" his cries got worse I pushed him away
"Hhayi Gugu this son of yours is crazy, now I can't get laid after waiting for so long "
The day for us to go to Durban came. I was going to see Dumisani's parents.


I woke up earlier than my usual time.Siya cried I bathed him fast and fed him,after few minutes he was already sleeping I laid him next to his father who was still sleeping. I cleaned the house and went to take bath. I woke Dumi up he woke up complaining
"Hhayi Gugu I still want to sleep why am I up this early?" I laughed at him
"It's six Dumi go and bath" he went to the bathroom, I made him breakfast I heard him shouting my name.
Sometimes I felt like I was his mother especially if he had flue I had to nurse Siya and him. I wiped my hands and went to him. When I opened the door he was behind door. He pulled me to him
"Siya is sleeping we can make use of this time" I giggled
"I trust your son to wake up when you are about to come" he looked at me with half closed eyes.
He smashed his lips on mine,he made me bend and hold the sink
"Gugu you are not wearing anything underneath this ugly dress" I giggled this time he didn't waste anytime with his teasing skills because he knew what his son was capable of. He filled me up all I could do was to moan I was surrendering my soul to this man. He moved very fast I shattered underneath him as I was about to breath he filled me up with his cum
"Oh baby that was mind blowing. The things you make me do" I removed my dress and joined him
"You are so cunning Dumi" I pouted
"Remember when I used to bath you when you were pregnant"
"You are not talking to me" he laughed I bathed fast. As I was about to leave he held my arm
"Let's do it one more time baby,look at me I am hard again" as I was about to respond my boy cried I left him frustrated.
When he came out of the bathroom he complained
"It seems like you love him more than me"
"Stop being a baby go and get dressed. Your breakfast will get cold"
Siya was now five months he was so fat I don't know if it is the appropriate word to use but he was very big and heavy.
We did final touch ups Senzo came and parked near the gate he helped me carry the bags to the car
"How are you MaNdaba?" I was so scared of him I caught a glimpse of his gun on his waist
"I am good and you ncane" he smiled it was my first time to see his smile
"I wish I was good" I quickly went back to the house.
Dumi was already done eating he was washing his plate
"Bafo how are you?" Senzo asked smiling
"Everything is fine bafo and how are you?"
"I am good" this guy was playing mind games with me I wasn't going to entertain him.
Dumi was driving and Senzo was sitting on the front seat. They played Maskandi music well that wasn't my cup of tea. Siya was sleeping he was used to the loud music. There is power in the words that you tell your children. I often told Siya how successful he was going to be and that he was a blessing.
I was woken up by Dumi we were already in Harrismith
"Baby what do you want me to get you?"
"Cappuccino will do" he smiled
"Baby the KFC cappuccino is not nice their beans are often burnt" Siya opened his eyes
"Go to Baba Siya, baby buy me anything I might like" he kissed Siya they went to KFC. I looked outside the window because I was only left with Senzo I wasn't comfortable around him
"Do you love Dumi MaNdaba? " I chuckled bitterly that was the most stupidest question ever
"Why would I be with him if I didn't love him?" He smiled
"Is it because he's the only man you have ever been with?" I got angry
"You are crazy, stop smoking whatever you are smoking because it is messing up with your sanity" he chuckled
"I see I hit a nerve, right?"
Dumi opened the car holding Siya in a funny way he looked at me
"This boy messed up please change him"
I laughed going outside the car Dumi was a drama king I laid the blanket on top of the bonnet of the car and changed him.
As we approached Durban I got more nervous. Dumi handed the car to Senzo my man was tired he leaned on my shoulder
"Don't be nervous baby,I can feel your heart beating fast"
"What if your mother won't like me?" He held my hand
"Chill baby my mom is sweet" Siya looked at his father and started blubbering Chinese. I could see Dumisani's eyes glowing with joy.
We finally reached Verulam but before that I had asked Senzo to take us to Gateaway so that we can buy groceries for the family. We couldn't go there empty handed.
Their house was extended and it looked nice. Senzo parked outside the house. Dumi got out of the car carrying Siya I followed them carrying my bag. His father came outside he looked handsome I couldn't believe that I was ogling at my father in law
"Mangethe, Linda Mkhonto Zikode asibingelele unjani baba (how are you father)?" He smiled taking Siya
"I am good and you my son. How are you my daughter? " I bowed a little to show some respect
"I'm good and you sir?"
"Don't call me sir you can call me Baba" I smiled looking down.
I followed Dumi his mother came running towards us she hugged Dumi tightly
"It's been long my boy" she looked at me and looked at Siya
"How are you ma?" I greeted her
"I am good and you sis"
"I am good" she took Siya from his grandfather
"This boy looks like you Dumi, he is so adorable. He took my weight" Zwane laughed
"Kahle ngehaba Makheswa" she smiled she was indeed beautiful but her attitude was stinking .
"I am telling the naked truth Zwane" I tried laughing . We sat down in the living room.
"Baba this is Gugu Ndaba the mother of your grandson. The woman I am inlove with" his father smiled
"I am glad I finally met you MaNdaba. I heard a lot about you,do not worry it's good things only " I looked down shyly while everyone was laughing
"Same here Baba"
Senzo walked in carrying plastics. He greeted his parents and went outside. Makheswa shook her head laughing
"There is something confusing here,so Gugu you came here alone without having any of your family members with you? Isizulu seGoli ngiyasibonga (I thank the Johannesburg Zulu) it doesn't have morals, the Zulu that we have here doesn't allow a woman to visit the inlaws when the guy didn't pay anything, young lady this is life you don't sell yourself short" I was surely going to strangle this woman.
"Leave the kids alone please" Zwane spoke with so much authority that shut the she-beast up.
"Don't take it to heart my child times have changed but that doesn't mean the tradition evolves it remains the same. We will do right with your family"
"Makoti what are you doing with your life" I swear this woman was testing me and she was winning Dumi responded
"She can't work Ma Siya is still young" she nodded
"I see but was she working before?"
"No I wasn't working" she looked at me irritated
"Hhayi man Dumi you go around taking every burden. Why would you date a person who is not doing anything with their life. Are we even going to get any money from you?"
Zwane got angry
"Is this the way to welcome children no you don't do that"
"But Zwane I am.."
"Keep quiet if you don't have anything nice to say" she kept quiet angrily
I stood up and went outside. I didn't know the place but I wanted to be away from the dragon. I got outside the gate rushing Dumi ran after me he hugged me tightly
"I am so so sorry Gugu my mother is never like this"
"Leave me alone Dumi, I can't stay here I want to go back home"
"No you are not going anywhere, I promise I will talk to her"
"Watch me go, I am getting back inside that house and I am taking my bags and my son we are leaving this place. How does one disrespect someone they don't know so much. I hate your mom Dumi"
"I know you don't mean anything you said,you are just angry" he hugged me kissing my forehead. I had met the devil face to face
"I want my phone I need to talk to Mawe"
"Ok first calm down you will call her tomorrow" I nodded and got back to the house.
Dumi showed me his room I went in and slept. Dumi woke me up giving me food I pushed the plate away
"What's wrong MaNdaba?"
"I am not eating this food I still want to live" he got angry
"Are you saying my mother is a killer?"
"Stop putting words in my mouth,take it however you want to take it.Leave with your food and bring my son back to me"
"Are you going to sleep hungry Gugu?"
I woke up and sat my eyes were bloodshot red
"Dumi do you understand simple language? Please bring my son back to me when you take back this food" he came and sat next to me I just broke down. Mawe was never this hard on me Dumi's mother was a definition of the devil.
"Please don't cry baby we will leave tomorrow" I nodded and went back to bed.
I woke up around 5 and asked Dumi to show me where the cleaning things were.
After cleaning I made breakfast for everyone. They woke up around eight
"Makoti how did you sleep?" His father asked
"Good you baba"
"Good" .
Siya slept with Makheswa l only saw him in the morning.
I greeted her with respect she smiled,she was busy entertaining Siya.
"MaNdaba since Siya is a Zwane we should do a welcoming ceremony for him,introducing him to the ancestors"
"I am so sorry Ma my child doesn't partake in such ceremonies. He is a Christian and he's a Ndaba not a Zwane. I clearly don't remember your son paying the brideprice let alone damages" she got angry
"What are you implying maNdaba?" I looked at Dumi who was very quiet
"My son is a Christian" she laughed clapping her hands
"Dumi talk to your woman" I hoped that Dumi was not going to fail me like yesterday
"She is right mom our son is a Christian and nothing is going to change that " Zwane spoke softly
"It's fine MaNdaba we respect your decision as the parents" Makheswa complained
"Hhayi bo just like that Zwane. You are allowing kids to walk over you. If Siya gets sick don't ask us to help you"

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THE UNKEPT WIFE Sequence 9-10

The aunty made coffee for Lizwi who was smiling
"Lizwi so how are you it's been long? Are you already working? " aunty was running out of conversations she was scared of what Lizwi was going to ask
"Yes aunty I will send my uncles here soon (Laughing ) so that I can marry Gugu" aunty coughed
"I hear you my son, why didn't you call Gugu when you were away? Do you know that she spent most of the times crying thinking that you have neglected her?" Lizwi rubbed his forehead
"I know aunty but I told her that we were never going to communicate for four years. She knew that I don't understand why Gugu acts like a baby most of the time(Laughing ). I had asked her to come with me but she refused I understood that. I was doing everything for our future I knew that if I had contacted I was going to pack my bags and come back without thinking twice. That is how much I love her, she's one person who can tell me to jump and I would do it without thinking twice that is how much she controls me. I love her more than I love myself. I would do anything to make her happy. All I need is you to bless us aunty, I would like to thank you for grooming her for me. I promise you that I will treat her with love and respect she will never lack anything in her life" aunty slightly sobbed
"Lizwi you are a good man. May God raise more men like you"
"Proverbs 1 v7 says The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom but fools despise wisdom. When I got saved I told myself that I will never live the life I lived before. Please give me Gugu's numbers I miss her a lot" aunty gave Lizwi Gugu's numbers
"Aunty I am leaving, you may keep the flowers and the chocolates since the stubborn lady decided to move out. Who is she staying with now?" They were interrupted by Lizwi's ringing phone. Lizwi decided to walk out waving.
At Phumulong. .
I had been packing and sorting out the grocery my phone rang
"Mawe how are you? "
"I am not good Gugu Lizwi was here,he asked for your numbers"
"You are joking right?"
"Gugu it's bad I don't even know what to say to you. I am disappointed in you, he had told you that he was going to come back after four years. Gugu why are you acting like a baby?" I cried the day had arrived
"Mawe I am human I make mistakes. I know I am stubborn I try to control it but I can't. How does he look now ?"
"He looks handsome you lost a God fearing man. It's better because you have Dumi he looks like a good man. How is it there?"
"He has been good I can't complain. I am from shopping centre he had given money to buy grocery"
"Gugu you have to go and look for a job since you don't want school. You can't depend on Dumisani's pay. Stand up for yourself and work you don't know what the future holds for you"
"I will see after birth,this pregnancy is not doing any justice to me I am always sick. My feet are swollen"
"You are pregnant not handicapped or crippled why can't you be like your sisters. They are employed even if they earn peanuts. Gugu be awakened umhlaba uzokuhlaba sis (this world will make you suffer) I know that I am annoying you but if you take my words you will thank me one day"
"I hear you let me go I am cooking the food is burning I love you" I dropped the call I had gained weight I was now wearing size 34 I used to wear size28/30. I received a call from an unsaved number
"MaNdaba" his voice was now deeper I swear I felt something twisting inside my stomach
"Mhlongo"
"Lalihle iphimbo lakho kwathi agide (how nice is your voice, I feel like dancing ) I have been waiting for this day."
"Oh" I was out of words God knows I wanted to speak
"Gugu what's wrong? Are you not excited to hear from me?"
"I am excited I am shocked. I can't believe that the day has finally arrived. I never thought you were ever going to come back. Welcome back Mhlongo"
"I miss you so much Gugu can you tell me the place you are at please I want to see you. I want to touch that beautiful body of yours. I have been longing for those sweet juicy lips for the past 1460 days, 35040 hours I have been counting all the lonely nights spent without you. Now that I am here I promise to wipe away every tears of yours and substitute them with joy, I want to make right with you. You will only experience joy MaNdaba.You have to be mine officially" I was crying
"I can't meet you today can we meet tomorrow"
"I love you Gugu with all that is in me"
"Where are we meeting tomorrow? "
"Fourways in Mugg n Bean at 10. I intend to spoil you the whole day"
"My battery is low bye.." I dropped the call I was doomed those were the results of being stubborn, the results of thinking that I knew it all. If only I could turn back the hands of time. If only I had gone to Cape Town with Lizwi I would have been speaking a different story. I finished cooking and went to bed. I don't know when Dumi came home. I felt his cold hands around my waist. He was busy brushing his hard cock on my butt. I pretended to be sleeping until I couldn't take it anymore .
"Dumi your hands are cold please stop it. I am tired I want to sleep"
"I am sorry I will warm them up" he tried touching me again. I knew what he wanted but he wasn't getting any tonight "Dumi please don't touch me I want to sleep"
"Baby please just one round. I want to feel you please maNdaba" I raised my head facing him
"I said not today,should I sleep on the floor now errh so that you can understand that I don't want. Clearly you don't understand the word No"
"I am sorry Gugu don't bite my head off" I chuckled bitterly
"Why would I start with you?since when do I bite people's heads please don't bore me" I felt guilty afterwards
"Sorry mamakhe sleep tight I love you"
"Mhmm"
I woke up the next morning late,Dumi had left a letter apologising. It wasn't him it was all me. I left home two hours earlier I ordered tea I couldn't drink coffee. Lizwi walked in he looked very handsome I wanted to jump on him but I couldn't
"MaNdaba woow you look.. fat in a good way stand up and hug me. It's been long" I wanted to standup but I couldn't I started crying
"Mhlongo how are you?"
"Gugu what's wrong stop crying,what will people say? "
"I am so so sorry Lizwi "
"Gugu talk" I stood up he looked at me chuckling bitterly
"No you are kidding me right. Is this a prank Gugu?"
"I felt lonely then I moved on. I didn't want to but he pursued me for more than two years. I tried but"
"Don't tell me nonsense Gugu,do you know how many temptations I passed without failure. Girls offered themselves but I gladly rejected them. Is this how you thank a man who respected your body and wanted marriage before sex. I wasn't stupid but I understood your worth"
"I am sorry"
"The milk has already been spilled. You wasted my time my four years Gugu. My friends were right when they said church girls are whores damn you wasted my time(shaking his head). I can't believe this,this is so unbelievable. I want to believe that I am dreaming. This is all a joke woow"
"Forgive me Lizwi I wanted attention you also contributed to my mistake"
"Don't you dare include me in your stupidity. Why did you even agree to meet up with me? To show me your pregnancy? And gloat rubbing it on my face.To you I was a stupid boy so you finally met the smart guy who wanted what you wanted. Woow this is the best surprise of my life I will carry this for the rest of my life"
"Lizwi please don't say that." He rubbed his teary eyes
"You will never see me again, you are worse than Judas Iscariot. I will never forgive you " I cried so much I pulled his trousers kneeling down
"Please forgive me Mhlongo"
"Don't you dare utter my surname. Do you love him Gugu? "
"I care about him"
"I can't believe that all of my dreams have been shattered. All along I thought that you were going to be the mother of my kids. Bye have a nice life" he looked at me with fury and disgust one last time.
I paid for my tea all eyes were on me. I was embarrassed tears were falling down on my cheeks involuntary I tried stopping them but I couldn't.
When I got home I threw my bag on the floor and went to the bedroom. I cried until I couldn't take it anymore.
Dumi walked in
"Baby what's wrong? Is the baby ok?"
"Yes I am fine I think it's the hormones"
"Let me massage your feet baby to make you feel better" he tried touching me I pushed him away
"It's him right Gugu? It's him woow " he shook his head laughing
"What are you talking about Dumisani? I am getting tempted tonight"
"I am glad you know it too?"
"Muntu (Person) what are you talking about?"
"So Lizwi is back that is why I am being ill treated"
"I don't even know what you are talking about just leave me out of your bullshit"
"I heard clearly you when you said Lizwi, I wasn't stupid to continue with what I had started. If you want to go back to Lizwi you have to be patient and give birth to my baby, my baby will stay behind "
"Dumi you got me pregnant on purpose right? You said you had pulled out. Did you pull out?"


I was so confused Dumi had tricked me. I cried he just sat next to me with tears coming out from his tiny eyes
"My baby is not a mistake Gugu don't you dare take out your frustrations on it"
"You tricked me Zwane this is so wrong in so many levels "
"Pulling out is not 100% accurate" I nodded and went back to bed. All my life I had been depending on Mawe she had protected me all her life now I had to face reality. He slightly shaked me
"Please don't cry I am really sorry I love you so much and I don't want to lose you"
"You won't lose me Dumi stop crying" he hugged me from behind we both fell into silence. I could still see the hatred and disgust in Lizwi's eyes.
I woke up the next morning with Dumisani's leg over me.
"Are you not going to work Zwane? "
"No I am bonding with my mini family today" I smiled
"You are still the crazy man I met four years ago"
"I plan to be one for the rest of our lives" I smiled looking at him I had not loved Dumi more than Lizwi but the mini things he did for me were making me to love him. We spent the whole day looking for our baby's bed
I was now eight months pregnant Dumi was helping me bath, he used to do crazy things when he was bathing me I would laugh at his silly ass. I tried cooking for him he came back earlier
"So she cooked" he kissed me
"Dumi"
"I missed you MaNdaba, this pregnancy is making you sexy. Feel how hard I am" he took my hand and placed it in front of him
"Leave me alone, how was your day my love"
"Good well I found us a house in Klipfontein I don't want you to give birth in this township. You two need to be in a safe environment" I hugged him
"Dumi I love you, I am grateful for what you do in this household"
"I am grateful that you love me the way I am and also for giving me a title of a father. I promise to protect you and to love you unconditionally"
"Are we getting married? I swear those felt like vows. I am even crying" he kissed my nose.
I dished for him, Dumi was very talkative but he spoke stupid things most of the time.
The following day his brothers came and packed everything for me. We were moving to a suburb I loved the place it was peaceful .
The wives were doing the packing while I was sitting. I was really close to his first brother's wife the thing is we were both Christians.
When everything was set they cooked. When I walked in inside the house the last born who was a gangster looked at me inappropriately but I brushed it off I couldn't bring myself to talk to him that is how scared I was of him.
Dumi was now using his brother's car. I was woken up by an excruciating pain, I staggered going to the bathroom
Dumi followed me
"What do you want? " I hated how he followed me around as if I was selling something
"I saw you.." I screamed
"Dumisani this feels like death. .uh.. I swear it's my last time. Why are you still standing there?"
He ran to the bedroom taking the car keys.
He was nervous he took the bags we were always prepared just in case if I were to go to labour because I knew that I was going to give birth anytime soon
He carried me to the car
"You will drop me Dumisani" he smiled his stupidity was irritating me more and more. He later called Mawe
"Gugu are you okay?" How does one ask an obvious question. I looked at him and closed my eyes .
"I will give birth in this car if you drive slow (Dumi drove faster ) I didn't say get us killed. Dumi what's your problem "
We finally reached Johannesburg hospital. The nurses came running towards I had to sit on the wheelchair.
Dumi went back to the car to get my bags. We were taken to the maternity ward.
The doctor came and asked me to open my legs. He inserted his two fingers.
"Mam I can feel the head it's near open your legs wider" he called for the nurse.
"Ma it's time for you to push, you are lucky uh you didn't get any labour pains"
I pushed I wanted to close my legs the nurse slapped me
"Hey open your legs wider sisi" she was so rude she was the devil's advocate
I pushed for the last I heard a deafening sound. I literally cried I had brought a life
"It's a boy he is so big" they weighed him he was 3.6kg. His father walked in smiling. I handed him to Dumi
"Siyabonga Zwane" I smiled through tears
"He looks like you Zwane"
"He has to, I am handsome he can't be ugly he's a Zwane" I laughed looking at my silly man.
Aunty came the next day, we got discharged around 12.
Mawe taught me how to nurse my stitches. She helped me bath Siyabonga I felt like it was breaking her she had never had a child of her own. I was so scared to bath him he was so tiny. My nipples were sore and my breasts had grown big.

To be continued..

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